Day 89 - the new day 4 ....

Someone needs to remind me I am calmer, I think more clearly, I'm less emotional therefore less melt downs...WHEN I WORK OUT!!!!  Did you got that "someone"?!?
If I miss two days of working out you better make sure there isn't a 3rd day, unless I'm in bed with the flu!


While I was working out...and since I always put Jillian Michaels on mute... I get a lot of thoughts... today in my rambling brain, I wondered a few things but these are the highlights:
Why anyone would listen to me when I said "You MUST join Facebook" and
"When would I have to start my last 90 Challenge to make it end on June 1, 2013 when I do the Spartan Race?"

I pushed myself through the No More Trouble Zones by telling myself "You want to climb the rope" and started making a list of things I want to improve in my work outs or increase. I am no longer counting the number on the scale as my goals. I am counting what I am able to do as my goals and my increases stamina.


Today I did 2 sets of 32 jumping jacks, one set of burpees although I didn't count them I was just focused on doing them. I did 8 push ups in plank position and I have been working on doing some of the exercises on this DVD that I used to say "OMG I CAN'T DO THAT" even the stretches she does at the end seemed unreachable to me.

I do have to stop once in a while and I can't do as many as reps as the girls in the DVD but believe me I am working on it. There was a point just 5 months ago I didn't do any jumping jacks! I just marched in place and slowly pushed myself to do 10. I'll be up to 40 soon and these other things I can't handle I'll get there!!!

 When I sat down to feed Alexander I went to timeanddate.com to figure out my question about when my 90 days would have to start to end on June 1. Here's the break down
March 3, 2013 to June 1, 2013 - 90 days
Dec 2, 2012 to March 2, 2013 - 90 days
Sept 2, 2012 to Dec 1, 2012 - 90 days
which makes my next 90 challenge only 85 days from Friday June 8 to Sept 1.... but if I wanted it to be the full 90 it would have started on June 3... which is the day I signed up for the Sparta Race!!! So I decided my this 90 day challenge  is going to overlap a few days with my next one. I love the thought of my sign up being the start of my new "push yourself until you can have lick-able abs next year" challenge. I know just who's gonna lick them too.


When Anthony came home from school it was errand time!- Its my daily blah blah blah

First to Dee's Florist to order Boutonnieres and Wristlets
To the dry cleaners to pick up Anthony's Christening outfit which Alexander will be wearing
Next stop Mommy gets her favorite

To the dollar store where I thought I wasn't getting anything then I found nail polish I might try and frames for all the pictures of the boys we are giving to our Aunts


I ordered Chinese Food and then went to Kohl's in search of black shirts for the boys to wear for our Perosi Family pictures on Saturday. We came out and were thrilled to see a beautiful double rainbow


I had to hunt someone down to take our picture - and umm the leg on my jeans looks baggy!! Can that be?? I just bought them on April 17th.



Off to A&P for milk


Finally home, fed Anthony and gave Alexander a bottle, cleaned up the dinning room.. well the table is cleared off there are still crates of baby clothes that have to go back in the basement. Anthony had a bath, watched a moving, I continued to try and clean up while the roommate was busy doing something on his computer. And here I am finally blogging!

I forgot to post these photos yesterday. A few of the sundresses I ordered came in.




See that damn sock in the picture? it's the roommates, he dropped it and didn't pick it up. I'm going to have to pick it up, I'm sick of looking at it.

Well I guess I'm done with my blah blah blah. I have really been feeling great the last 3 days! Working out does wonder.

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Day 88 - the waiting game

At midnight I was trying to wait and see if Alexander would stop crying. I know the poor kid is teething. If I got up and stood near the crib he would stop crying. As soon as I walked away he would cry!

I got back into bed and to my surprise Anthony shows up in the bedroom.
"Mommy I can't sleep with him crying"
"Me either. He wants to have a party"
With that Anthony goes by the crib and starts talking to Alexander... this is what I remember
"It's okay brother, it's okay. Calm down. Calm down. We can have a party tomorrow. We can make a cake, we will hide and then jump out and yell SURPRISE! Because that's what you do at parties. Now go to sleep and stop crying"

It was the sweetest moment! I need to start sleeping with my camera, never mind my cell phone, so I don't miss moments like this.

Then all night long the saboteur who's been in Las Vegas for a week had to keep texting me "waiting for the bus to the airport", "waiting at the gate", "waiting on the plane to take off", "landed waiting to get our luggage" OMG WHO CARES! She didn't care about the time difference that's for sure. She's home now, which means I must avoid her at all costs until Sunday so she doesn't piss me off.

Of course nothing goes as planned and this morning Anthony was coughing so bad at 6am, the roommate called him out of school. I gave him his cough meds and he watched TV. Alex woke up at 10:30, got him a bottle and settled, checked on Anthony at 11 and he was asleep!

I quickly changed into my new work out gear and put in my Jillian Micheals No More Trouble Zones DVD. My trouble zones are happy to report I did the whole DVD and really pushed myself.

I did 2 sets of 32 jumping jacks
I didn't count how many push ups in plank, but I did a few
I also switched out one set of  surrenders for some burpees!
I'm so proud of myself!!!!!!!

The whole time I kept saying "You're Spartan training, keep going". I just need to keep pushing myself as hard as I can! I was really sweating like a pig when I was done and couldn't wait to get in the shower.



Next in my day of waiting, the stupid cheap acetone I have didn't take off my wraps. I had my nails soaking and waited and waited but nothing!

I am glad I didn't have to wait another day to work out my demon problems xoxoxo

The saboteur came up to see the boys late in the day. I didn't want her to know we were taking the boys for pictures. So while I was waiting for the roommate to come home I cut the boys hair. The saboteur took the pictures. When I saw myself in the new green tank top I wasn't disgusted by myself!



The roommate got home and showered then started getting dressed. He came to find me and asked if he was suppose to wear his suit. Sometimes I don't know how I stop myself from screaming. I told him the boys were having pictures not us! And even so, if he opened his eyes, the boys were in jeans and a t-shit and so was I!!! So he can wear his suit, he'll fit right in. I had to wait for him and then off we went.

They took cute photos. I'm really happy. I do have to go back because all the pictures weren't on the CD.



I sent the roommate to the restaurant where we are having the Christening while I waited for the photos to be printed. Of course he had to call to double check what he was suppose to do.

I wonder how it's going to feel to one day have a life where if I say something someone listens to me. I don't mind repeating myself if I was unclear with the directions. And lets face it we don't always listen so once in a while to repeat yourself okay. BUT EVERY SINGLE TIME he is out doing anything he has to call and check! Is he that unsure of himself or doesn't care, doesn't listen? I don't get it!

I'm about to write my to do list for tomorrow and then go to bed. Looking forward to hitting those trouble zones again!
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Day 87 - Apparently karma is making your pinky toe hate me

I got A1 to school but not without having to watch 4 episodes of Doc McStuffins this morning! Who is that?, you ask. She's a 6 year old girl who's a doctor to stuffed animals. I had start recording this for him last week after he saw the first one.

I have my list of what to do today and slowly crossing things off and adding things to the to do list for the rest of the week. I am worried that I'll forget something, because  you know it's all on me, every little detail.. if everyone has clean clothes, corsages and boutonnieres ordered, seating chart, ribbons on favors, pictures printed, new socks for Alexander to wear, pay the restaurant, the church, batteries for cameras, find the missing camera, toys and things to do for Anthony packed and ready, "emergency kit" packed with everything from aspirin to needle and thread to extra clothes for both boys in case someone gets sick.

Plus I have to do my nails again, my hair is getting highlighted this week, everyone else needs a hair cut, the house is a MESS and I don't know if anyone will be stopping by before or after the Christening so I need to get this place cleaned up.

I still have the doctor paper work to fill out that's been hanging over my head, and I'm trying to work out every day.

I'm tired just typing out what I have to do this week. And next week isn't any better. I'm suppose to be going away next weekend but I still don't know if that will happen. So I'm glad I'm busy to keep my mind off of it and the fact that my cell phone seems to be broken...incoming text messages seem to be limited.  I think I need a new service plan, something very detailed like Sheldon's roommate agreement.

I got in a 30 minute work out today. I would have been able to do the full hour, but work out was called on a count of a crying hungry baby!
Before- wearing the shirt Cheryl gave me




Sweating like a pig




Time to tackle as much more as I can on my to do list today and make Anthony dinner.
And if you have no idea what I'm talking about sometimes, it's because I'm not talking to you :-)
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Days 85 & 86 another weekend

Another crazy weekend!

Saturday June 2, 2012 - Day 85

I am still trying to get done things for the Christening. Table seating is a little crazy but I'll get it done. I have a list and need to stick with my list.

The stupid ass roommate got locked out of the van on Saturday. Instead of calling the cops he called to scream at me, like it was my fault. He told me to call OnStar but I didn't think they could help because we have the rear view mirror type, but I called and was very happy to learn they could send road side assistance. Within 20 minutes someone was there to unlock the van door. When the stupid roommate got home he went right back out again to the Dodge dealer to get us spare keys.

I also did a little shopping and got myself a lemon backpack! I love it. I also found big lemon and lime bags. I got a few of those and one I'll use to carry my shakes to and from the doctors from now on.

The other great thing that happen was I bought workout shorts and pants IN THE NORMAL SIZE SECTION OF THE STORE. I was not in the "woman's" or "plus size" I saw the work out area and thought "let me just take a look". When I saw the pants and shorts I didn't say to myself "they will never fit me" I decided to try them on because I thought they would and they DID! HOLY SHIT!!

I am so excited about the pants, much better than the big leggings that have been falling off of me while taking the walk/runs with Twiggy. And I was thrilled with the new black shorts. The two I have that I wear all the time are so big, that if I wear them when I work out, before I get to the end of my 30 jumping jacks they fall right off!

Later in the day I had the roommate get a few things down for me that I couldn't reach and I made him move some stuff in our room because I wanted to get to my secret hiding place *grin* I was on a hunt for the ring we gave my grandmother with all our birthstones. I found it and super excited that it fit. I also found my high school class ring which I haven't been able to get on my finger since before the first time I got married. woooo hooo there it is on my finger!

Sunday June 3, 2012 - Day 86

Spartan Race day!!! I was up early took care of a few things around the house and out the door I went to meet Cheryl and watch her do the Spartan Race. I had my new yellow shirt on and lemon backpack.


I was excited and nervous for her. I couldn't do any of the obstacles (I can here her saying YET) I would have been happy with myself just to make it walking around the course. I was pleased with myself that I didn't get out of breathe walking up and down the hill to take pictures. To me that was a big deal.

This was one of my favorite obstacles. I am so amazed my Cheryl!


If you don't know anything about my girlfriend Cheryl you can read about her journey here

Here she is at the end with her metal



Then guess what I did?! That's right I signed up for next year!All I keep thinking is OMG WHAT DID I DO, WHAT DID I DO!!



Even though I already knew I would have no support at all from home. I told the roommate. When I showed him all the pictures of Cheryl he said "You're going to do that?" and laughed. I don't know if he laughed because he knows how much I hate mud, or doesn't think I can do it.

 Either way FUCK HIM. Talk about an ultimate goal. I was never the kid who could finish the stuff in gym class. I would want to die of embarrassment when we had to run around the field. I would come home and cry and I couldn't do it.

I don't know how much I'll be able to do in a year but I'm going do try and do whatever I can. I saw woman doing this who were about my size now and they got it done! I can do this if I work at it.

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Day 84 - Karma just hit you in the pinky toe

My fat ass some how lost 3 more pounds this week, maybe in my pinky toe. I don't know how and I feel undeserving. I only got in one hour of working out. I've been stressed, upset and crying for days...over all just a big mess, even my hair hurts.

I talked to my doctor about how I have been feeling and guess what I have to do? Test my blood sugar because he thinks it might be dropping!

That's new, dropping is not the issue I used to have. So I'll get my tester out and get it ready for when I feel wacky. I need something to blame for my moodiness and low blood sugar sounds GREAT! Otherwise I have to blame someone else but karma just smacked them in the pinky toe for me and I grinned!

I hate this t-shirt, I should have worn one of my new shirts. I guess I should just pack up that bottom draw of shirts and get rid of them.  I wore my shorts to the doctors today and then to do my errands. I haven't worn shorts out of the house in years! No decades!! The last time I wore shorts out of the house was when I lived in Clifton.


I can hear the voices in my head telling me "you can't go out like that", "you can't wear shorts", "you can't have your arms out", "you can't have your legs out", "YOU LOOK HORRIBLE" those voices are followed by "You'll be pretty if you only lose weight" I wish I could just shut them up but I don't think they will ever go away.

When the roommate gets home we are going out to Target with the kids. I need to get formula for Alexander and Anthony wants to "shop" I really would like a new mirror for the back of the bedroom door too but then you'd see the hoarder's mess more!

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