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So today I feel I got my knees up higher. Its still hard, but I'm still going. I am very excited that I got my knees up higher!
I did my egg cleanse yesterday. It wasn't as bad as I thought. I'm trying to clear the negative energy around me and in the house.
Today I'm going to put my make up on, get dressed and big excitement we are going out to Target..LOL
I'm also going to clean up the kitchen a bit.
drinking my water is today's mission!

I'm on day 4

On day 4 of working out. It's only a few minutes. And I'm proud of myself for those few minutes. I don't like to exercise I never did it's hard for me. I never felt strong. I'm going to work on changing that feeling. 

I logged all my food yesterday. I'm so surprised that the yogurt has too much fat. I need to be careful with out much I'm eating. Maybe that's why my number are a little high. I have been living on yogurt since Chris died. I thought it was a healthier choice.

This morning I had egg whites and reduced fat cheese. My lunch will be salad again. I need to rethink a snack, maybe some nuts?

I'm going to do an egg cleanse today. I also have my 2nd to last joy class tonight.

Here I am again

Talking to myself once again. I'm on day 3 of working out. I'm sore today. I'm only doing a few minutes of Jillian Micheals of 6 week 6 pack. I like this one because it's upright work at first. I need to build myself back up to getting down on the ground. My knees are hurting. I just found out I am seriously lacking in vitamin D again.
I'm going to the doctor for all kinds of tests to check on my heart. I'm so scared I'm going to die like Chris. I still can't believe it. I'm still so sad. I cry a lot. I can't get to sleep. I just can't believe it. I can't. I don't want to. But things are moving on, changes are happening. Aunt Mer is moving to Florida with Vinnie. And I'm still here in the cold weather that I hate! I hate the snow and cold. I want to move too.