10 minutes

I did another 10 min work out. Got my heart beat up there. I am reminding myself that I'm worth it. This is my 3rd work out this week. I did one yesterday just forgot to post.
Mission rest of the day. Drink water!

Two words

Two words just lifted my mind and soul from the darkness. Those two words where so powerful to me that my first thought was "I can take care of me!" And with that I did a workout. It wasn't a big work out. 10 minutes. I'm happy with my 10 minutes. I'm happy with myself.
I can do this. I am
NOT going to dwell in the
GUILTY darkness of the black hole
Maria

I kept the tiny humans alive

I am just trying to get through each day. Some days I feel how sad I am the minute I wake up. I have a lot of thoughts in my head. I'm snapping pretty quickly especially at those who add to my mad/sad in other words, my mother and Ed.
And when Ed is the better of the two I know how bad my depression is.
I managed to get everyone started on cleaning the boys room today. We did 3 loads of laundry and I cooked twice today. Pretty amazing considering my main goal today was to get back in bed.
Being this depressed is pretty fucking awful.
Xoxo
Me

Today

Today my mission is to just drink a lot of water. That's it, no pressure. Just drink more water. It's a busy busy day running the boys to and from, summer school, swim lessons, eye doctor, soccer and scouts!
I'm washing clothes right now, playing runescape and watching Iliza on Netflix. She makes me laugh and I need more laugher!
Ready set...water. I will check in with you later and when I say you, I mean thinner me, not anyone who stumbled across my big fat ass.
Xoxo
Maria

I'm lazy

I don't want to do anything, go anywhere, make anything. It's a real struggle to get out of bed.
All I want to do is sleep.
I'm so broke, I don't know how to fix myself