I'm drowning

I'm not doing well taking care of myself or my family. I keep screwing up. The pressure of taking care of everything has had a negative impact on me.
It's hard to make decisions or I make the wrong ones. I have nobody to work it out with because their father has his own issues.
I am living through the worst year of my life, through no fault of my own. I am just trying to survive the fall out and I'm not making it.
I'm hurting so much, but I see we are reaching the end. By September 27 we should have answers to all the big issues. I just need to keep my head above the water so I don't drown