Day 52 -This one is JUST right

I stayed up much later than I wanted to reading 50 Shades of Gray. When Anthony came bouncing out of bed like he does very morning, I was really kicking myself in my big fat ass for staying up so late. I will not make the same mistake tonight, plus I'm in no mood for Mr. Grey. In fact he would hate me tonight because I'm breaking a rule and doing it on purpose! so take that Mr. Grey

I had a nice morning with my boys and when Anthony got on the bus I came in to face the evil Ms. Michaels! I've been doing the 30 Day Shred for some time now, so I thought it was to go back to No More Trouble Zones.

I was right! My shoulders, back and legs hurt...but that good hurt from working out. I will be sticking with this DVD and doing those dreaded Surrender Exercise. I was doing pretty well with the work out, was almost done, but the phone was ringing and it was the doctor's office, they needed to reschedule my Friday appointment. Then Alex started his little fussing that he does when he's hungry, so 30 minutes was all I got in of the 40 minute work out.

When Anthony came home from school we went right to his dentist appointment. He had his check up and teeth cleaned. Then Nonna treated him to his favorite pizza, eggplant parm pizza. Anthony stayed downstairs by her, Alex up by me, then the roommate came home and I just needed to get out of the house and be alone. So I decided I would return the bigger dresses, but not before trying them all on again one last time.

If you missed any of the Quest for the Dress posts, the story begins with my post from March 11. Then continues on March 21 and a very happy me on April 4th.
Here I am today in the size 22 that I bought first. This one is too too big

This is me in the 20 - This one is too big

And the size 18 is JUST right - well almost just right and I still have a whole month to work on my belly!
If you ask me I think you can tell by my face I needed some down time. 

I got to Lane Bryant to return the dresses and the woman asked "Why are you returning them?" even though I was moody I was happy to answer "They are too big"

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Day 46 - I have NOTHING to wear!

I did my work out shortly after Anthony went to school. I pushed harder and was able to do 4 push ups in plank position. I remember when I couldn't even hold myself up in plank and that was just in January. Tomorrow I will try for 5, but I know it will take a few days to get it. I like these physical fitness goals I give myself, it makes my journey about being healthy and fit not just a number on the scale.

Here I am at my computer getting ready to work out and here I am with my cheering section that fell asleep while watching me work out.
As I was getting dressed to go get a hair cut I really am having problems finding things to wear that fit me correctly. My jeans are all too big. The pair I'm wearing right now are so loose, I can pull them up to my bra!  They are baggy around the knees, they just look horrible. Which is FREAKING me out because tomorrow I am volunteering at my son's school and the last thing I want to look like is a slob. So I think after I get my hair cut I'm going to go to the Avenue and see if I can find a better pair of jeans. I just can't wait to go shopping on May 12 with Jenn, just no way!
Can you tell my jeans are big in this picture???
Jackie at Moda Salon did my color, cut and blow out in less and 2 hours. I love my hair. The roommate was home by then so I dropped Alex off to him to go on my mission to find jeans. Off to the Avenue where I brought 6 pairs of jeans into the dressing room to try on.
None of those jeans worked so off to Lane Bryant I went. The woman working there all helped me find straight leg petite jeans, in the dressing room and was thrilled to get my big fat ass into those 18!! They are just a little snug around the hips but no way was I buying a 20! These 18s will last me all summer until the autumn when I will go shopping for a smaller size GRIN!!
I was so happy I looked for a new shirt, the lady handed me a 14/16!! She's crazy I took the 18/20 in the dressing room. Here I am in the 18 jeans and 18/20 shirt.

I walked out of the dressing room and now two woman are telling me the shirt is too big and tell me to try on the 14/16 All I see is my big fat belly, so now they give me a pair of spanks and send me back in. This time I try on the purple shirt.

Yeah it looks better but I still see my big fat belly. I need to do more crunches, reverse crunches and bicycle crunches. I might have to try that Jillian Michaels 6 week 6 pack again. It was so hard for me I couldn't do most of the moves, so I will add it to the 30 shred and do what I can.

I started talking with the sales lady about how long she's worked there and I said I've been shopping here for almost 20 years. She said she didn't remember seeing me before. Then since I was THE QUEEN OF THE NILE over what size shirt, she asked me about my diet. I really need to start carrying a before picture with me, so I took out my drivers license to show her. 

She looked at the picture then looked up at me and said "I know the woman in that photo but I don't know you" WOW!! And that pretty much is how I feel. I don't know this new kick ass me who's working out and has fitness goals BUT I LIKE HER!!!   

Next I try on the red shirt because I wasn't sure which color I liked
SOLD! love the red one. Even my smile was bigger. There was one last shirt I like so I tried that on too. Still a little tight but I took it. I like having GOAL CLOTHES it makes me work harder. 


Speaking of "goal clothes" this is the Quest For The Dress. I'm aiming for this to be my 'mid summer's night dream' goal dress :-) I would love to wear it when I go away mid July.

One last thing I tried on tonight.. which was really the first thing I tried on, when I went to Costco to pick up a photo card order I designed for Twiggy.

Eli who works in the photo center was busy helping a crazy lady so I waited for him to be finish and checked out the jewelry. I love love LOVE this ring, the shape of the stone, the color of the stone, which is for November which is a very special month to me and I like the diamonds around it and on the band.
The ring ALMOST fit my finger, so I asked what size it was...a SEVEN!  My Wedding band is a 9 1/2. I stopped wearing it when I started calling him The Roommate so I had no idea my rings wouldn't fit me either. I think the only ring I have in a 7 is my high school class ring.

I guess when I said the only thing that fits me is my shoes, I wasn't lying, and that's because Jenn and I just bought shoes 2 weeks ago.

I can't wait to work out tomorrow morning... OMG did I just type that?? I can't wait to WORK OUT???!!!! 

See you tomorrow after the Art Show.
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Day 31 - back on track

Happy Monday and Happy I got my big fat @$$ back on track day. Told you I wouldn't let the eating continue. I have to make that size 18 look good not just zip it up!!

It was a long day, since Anthony is home from school. It's 10:39pm and this kid is still going!!! He just never stops, so I'm trying to get him to do the work outs with me hoping it will tire out the ADHD kid.. no luck! Meanwhile I am ready to go to bed RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!

My friend Jenn is also doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. She also hates the evil B!t(h, but my ass is getting smaller. In February my roommate took full body pictures of me. We are going to take them again some times this week. I can't wait to see the change. I know there's a change, the jeans I was wearing in February I need a belt to hold up.

Here I am tonight with Anthony at the start of the work out.


Anthony gave up, so here I am done 30 minutes later.


Good thing I don't have a weigh in on Friday, I jumped on my scale tonight and got scared by the number I saw! I don't like when I see it go up even a little bit. I need to focus, work hard and next week I hope to have at least another 2lbs off my big fat ass!

See you tomorrw
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Day 14 - lagging today

That Jillian Michaels is KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!! I did 11 or 12 of those kick ass surrenders yesterday and I've had enough. I even tried to film it but the video cuts me off from the waist down, so what's the point? you can't see the whole move. I'll try again next week.

Today I need a break from that evil evil woman. So I'm doing Debbie Siebers's Slim in 6 I know I have to push myself, but I also don't want to get hurt or keep using the same muscles.

I have to get into that size 18 in 79 days. My 90 challenges ends on June 7, Alexander's Christening is on June 10. On June 9 me and my cousins are going to have family photos taken and I need a pair of jeans for that!! And we all know my jeans don't fit ...does a happy dance!

I keep thinking about my "boyfriend" saying how great I look in that dress. Well he said "Your boobs will look fantastic"  Yes, I have a boyfriend.. don't you? In fact I have several!
I have one that makes me feel like this - all you ladies get that right?

One that would help me hide the body if necessary....lol. One that has been MIA for so long he should be striped of the title "boyfriend" And no none of them are gay.. although I did have a gay boyfriend way back when, but that's another story.

Okay enough blogging, time for my big fat @$$ to get up and work out before the BRAT comes home from school or the baby's heart alarm goes off. Here I am all ready to go, so lets get started...


My view of Alexander while doing crunches


And here I am done with my work out, sweating like a???


Tonight a friend is coming over for dinner and to meet Alexander for the first time. I will STICK to my diet! My weigh in is tomorrow at 1pm and I don't want to throw anything off.

If that scale goes down I'm treating myself to a pedicure tomorrow night. Look how sad my toes are :( I need a summer color, I am tired of looking at this red. BUT ONLY if the scale goes down. If not then I am looking at this sorry @$$ color for another week.



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the tale of 3 dresses

If you missed the story about The Quest for the Dress, you can read it here.

I picked up the two smaller size dresses last night came home, hung them up, took a photo and felt like Goldilocks...one will be just right.



I decided to put them all on.. YOU TELL ME HOW I LOOK!
Here I am in the first dress I bought size 22 sweater is size 22/24. This one I can get on and off without even using the zipper. It does feel like there is too much material on the bottom.




Here I am in the 2nd dress size 20 sweater is size 22/24. I had to use the zipper to put this one on and off.




Here I am in the 3rd dress size 18 sweat is size 18/20.


I could NOT get the zipper closed, so the top part does not fit like the above 2 and show off the girls.



So what do you think? Do you like the dress? Do I look like curtains? I am pretty sure I'll get that zipper coded by the end of May on the 18! But if I look like a curtain TELL ME PLEASE!!

I changed the comments so even Anonymous Users can post if you don't want me to know you think I look like the curtains :-) SO LEAVE A COMMENT AND TELL ME YOUR HONEST THOUGHTS!!!

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The Quest for the Dress 2012

I knew I wanted to wear a dress for my son's Christening in June, I just figured I would go shopping in May to find something. Until the Lane Bryant spring catalog came in the mall. I fell in love with the dress and purple sweater on the cover. It has an iris print on it and iris is one of my favorite flowers. Of course my saboteur told me the dress was too busy.

Here's the dress:


I posted the dress to my facebook page and a few of my friends said "get it" but the saboteur still gets to me. After the 4th person said you would look good, I decided at the spur of the moment when running errands yesterday to go try it on.


The feedback from my friends was great! I came home very happy, with my size 22 dress, big difference from when I started dieting I was wearing a 32!! We had friends over for dinner and I put the dress on for them to see. They also liked it on me a lot.

When I took it off I realized it has a zipper, which I did NOT use to put the dress on!!! I started thinking, with pushing myself to exercise come June, this dress is going to be too big, I need a size 20!

This morning I called a few Lane Bryant stores until the lady in Clifton went out of her way to help me. When I told her I have been dieting and exercising and have lost 21 pounds from Jan. She said "Honey if you lose another 20lbs you will be in a size 18"

The lady found the dress for me in a 20 and because of what she said, I also have a size 18 on hold. I will pick up the dresses on Wednesday and I have a 60 return window. May 5th I need to decide which dresses are going back and which I'm keeping.

One thing I know for sure, that size 22 is going BACK!!!!!

And now it's time for my workout!! It's Day 3 of my 90 day challenge.

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