One small step

I'm not giving up. I need to believe in myself. I do believe in myself. I know I can do this. Working out is a key for me. I did a 10 minute work out. I feel my legs shaking. That's good.
Yesterday I did well with food, pat on the back for me. If I want to succeed I need a plan. My plan is a work out every morning.
Congratulate yourself Maria, you aren't giving up.

Good habits

I am working towards building good habits. I know from my most successful weight loss what works for me is to work out in the am, blog about it, drink lots of water and have 1800 calories a day.
I went to bed last night feeling determined. Got up this morning feeling the same way.
Put my son on the bus and did a 20 minute work out.
Now I need to cross 8 glasses of water of my list and follow my diet plan :)

not the day I thought I would have but....

I thought I would get out of the house today however Alexander didn't want to wake up this morning, which means only one thing, he's sick again.

While he slept I cleaned out two boxes of junk, cleaned off the table, washed the dishes and put them away, changed the sheets, made a few phone calls and WORKED OUT!

I am not as good as I was when I was working out all the time, but slowly I will get there again. I know the best way for me to lose weight is to exercise.

I rewarded myself by working on the Ghostbusters painting for our wall, but after I took care of Alexander, of course.

xoxox
Maria

I worked out

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If you can't say anything nice, don't say it at all.. so all I'm posting today is I worked out!


Before


Sweating like a pig

stupid cold

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I started fighting this stupid cold Saturday afternoon. Sunday evening after the Ren Fair I just wasn't myself. I wanted to buy myself something this year at the fair but was so out of it I couldn't even find anything I liked. Oh well, I did have a good time with my kiddies and friends. Even the roommate was okay.

NY Renaissance Festival 2012

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I pretty much slept since Sunday night when ever I could. This cold really knocked me out. Today I was determined to clean up the house and work out. And I've done just that!

When Alexander went down for his 2nd nap I put in that evil Jillian Michaels and did level 2 of the 30 Day Shred. Oh My God I can't believe I can do a walk out push up! ME the fat girl! Holy Shit. It's just amazing to me that I can do that.

Before

Talk about sweating like a pig, there's sweat down my chest. I couldn't wait to get in the shower.

I bought a dress for Cheryl's wedding in January. So it's Quest for the dress #2!!! I can't believe what size I ordered! I'm scared to even type it out because I might jinx myself.

I am really going to try not to focus on the size dress. But of course I'm worried. I don't remember wearing anything smaller than a 16... which I'm wearing right now! I'm just going to focus on my work out goals.

Hell yeah I'm back!!!

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My mind is going a mile a minute right now. I feel GREAT but so so so sore. I'm back, hell yeah I'm back, I'm back, I'm back. It's the take no prisoners DID that I want to be...well maybe I'm just improving on one of my DID names. Whatever I'm doing, I knew there was no way I was missing a work out today.

I spent the day with my newly Wireless boy and my Patches boy at Field Station: Dinosaurs and had a great day.


Then SURPRISE....... the roommate turned into a "husband" for the first time in such a long time I should have him checked for entry points for where the alien entered him... He called that he was in the area and lets meet for dinner at IHop. HOLY MOLY!

I was so happy to see the calories listed on the menu!! I ordered the Veggie Omelette

Dinner took a while and for less than a minute I thought "I was active enough today don't need to work out" And THEN the host who's been working there forever said to me "You've lost weight" I smiled and said yes and knew I would come home and push myself to do that evil Jillian Micheals 30 day Shred.

Not only did I do the work out, I did level 2 and did the whole thing! I LOVE that my abs are so sore!! My arms hurt, my legs hurt and my butt hurts. I feel GREAT!!!!

Before


Sweating like a pig

Tomorrow I weigh in with my doctor. I haven't been there in a few weeks. I also haven't been 100% either, so I don't know if the scale will move at all. It's gone up and it's gone down the last few weeks. But I'm happy and really feel that fire to push myself past that number that has been scaring me.

Happy August 22nd!!!!

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When I left Anthony's eye doctor in July, I had a surgery date of August 8th. I then had to change Alexander's heart doctor appointment which was schedule for Aug 8th also. When they gave me the next available date I thought to myself, my lucky number 22 won't let me down.

I ended up changing Anthony's eye surgery so he could enjoy the rest of the summer and go swimming, but I didn't call Alexander's doctor to change the appointment back. I just felt my 22 would take care of me and the monitor would be coming off.

At last the day was here. I had expected to take Anthony with me but at the last minute he stayed with my mother. I knew FOR SURE it was coming off because every major important thing with Alexander, I have been the only one there with him. So off to the doctors I went, nervous and excited but confidant it was coming off.

Here Alexander is taking a little nap right before we left.


Here we are getting ready to leave.


Waiting in the waiting room

Having the exam
Woo Hoo GREAT NEWS - I'm too sexy for my monitor, too sexy for my monitor!!!

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I was so excited I didn't even get that bothered by the saboteur's annoying remarks later on in the afternoon when we did errands.

When I came home I made an anniversary dinner for the roommate and Anthony. Then to celebrate I did 30 minutes of Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. I am so happy that after not doing it for a while I was still able todo the jumping jacks and get through the whole DVD! yippie for me.

Here I am before my work out


And Sweating like a pig


I am really proud of myself that I didn't let the day get away from me and miss my work out! Now I'm going to play with photo shop for a little while and got to bed early.

Day 69 - I think I'm at a plateau

First - Thanks Michele and Cara for your comments ;-) You ladies made me smile.

I think I'm at a plateau right now. My scale moved .04 down all week. I know my scale has lied in the past but lately it's been correct since I changed the battery. The ONLY thing I have done differently in the past two weeks is switch from 30 Day Shred to No More Trouble Zones. I can do the 30 Day Shred all the way through and keep up. I am struggling with No More Trouble Zones and can't keep up with all the exercises she does but I try my hardest. I'm wondering if that's the difference.

But I feel like I'm pushing harder with No More Trouble Zones. Talk about sweating like a pig!



Jenn from Dr. Ransom called about my appointment tomorrow. She told me to do my measurements and see if I've lost inches. When the roommate gets home I'll have him do that.

Other random BS... my cousin just called to RSVP for Alexander's Christening and will not be attending, no surprise there with this cousin. The Saboteur had been trying to get me to ask this cousin's wife to be my baby's godmother.

Every time I talked about Godparents last summer she kept bringing up my cousin's wife. ((roll eyes here)) I kept bringing up two people and stuck to my decision. And then when my girlfriend realized she couldn't get out here I knew I would ask the other person I had in mind. Of course when I told the saboteur I had to switch Godmothers she had to say "I know who I would like you to ask" grrrr and look her choice won't even be there! Ha!

I am going to try to polish my nails tonight in between taking care of A1 and A2. And with any luck go to bed early. I'm tired.

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Day 60 - you might notice...

If you check my blog regularly you'll notice the ticker area has changed. I did reset the top ticker last Friday when I surprisingly met my 2nd goal. But I thought about it and decided it's better to list the goals instead of having a collection of tickers on the side. It looks like this now:

Started Dec 30, 2011
Objective to have a healthy BMI and lifestyle, eat right and exercise:
1 st goal lose 29.5 lbs - goal met on April 6, 2012
2nd goal lose 10.0 lbs - goal met on May 4, 2012
3 rd goal lose 24.0 lbs -




Yes there is a  reason my weight lost goals are crazy numbers.  My first goal was to get off everything I had gained back while pregnant with Alexander, that's the 29.5 lbs. My 2nd goal was more like a WOW can I get off another 10lbs before the Christening? My 3rd goal is chasing after a number I haven't seen on the scale in YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!

My weight fat needs to fall between 22% and 34% so I have no idea where I will end up on the scale. But my goal isn't really about the number anymore it's about being strong, healthy and in control.

I did Jillian Michaels No more Trouble Zones again today and must say I miss 30 day Shred!! Even push ups seem harder. I was doing two sets of 7 now with the circuit she has them in, I can only do 1 set of 5! Holy cow I'm hurting! The back of my arms are about to break, the sides of my thighs feel like they are on fire, even my ass is sore! My big fat ass is sore...LOL


Here I am feeling like "yeah I can do this"



Here I am saying "why they hell did I start taking pictures, I'm so tired I want to die"




I still have a list of  things to do today, but right now Anthony is hanging with Nonna, Alexander finally fell asleep and I'm thinking a mini nap would be good too!!!  I was going for a walk/run today but AGAIN it's raining!

In other news, Tuesdays are my favorite day of the week. But things keep changing and I miss my favorite day of the week. Last Tuesday I messed up my favorite day with my damn melt down. This Tuesday was changed do to unforeseen circumstances. I am getting a little mad at the universe for screwing up my favorite day of the week!!






Ready for Wednesday! 
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Day 51 - shorts to big

When I did my work out today I knew my shorts were to big, but I figured what difference did it make? umm... they were falling off with every jumping jack until I pulled them up higher and then rolled them down around my waist to bunch them up. Finally they stayed on, but they will need to go into the "these clothes are too big pile" I <3 that pile!!!

Today's extra push resulted in 4 sets of 22 jumping jacks and the last set was 26 jumping jacks. I couldn't push past the 2 sets of 7 push ups, but I will! Those push ups are KILLERS.

Before


I could NOT move at the end. I had to lay there for a bit.


The rest of the day has been pretty lazy, hanging and playing with the boys. I am going to scrap now and then get myself into bed early I have a date with Mr. Grey. 

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Day 49 - I wanna celebrate and live my life

This is my song of the day

Today I did 5 sets of 20 jumping jacks and 2 sets of 7 push ups! In January I couldn't do any of that!! In 4 short months I am seeing such a change in my attitude, my endurance and my clothes! Its really so hard for me to believe it's this simple.

You just have to push yourself a little bit at a time, THERE'S NO EXCUSE. Just get your ass up and do something for 30 minutes a day, WALK, jog in place, jumping jacks. I started out "sweatin to the oldies" because that's all I could do. Now I'm keeping up with that evil b!tch Jillian Michaels... is it just me? or does her voice get on your nerves too?? I have to mute the b!tch and put on music.

I did my work out before Anthony was even awake




I swear I just sweat buckets!!! Maybe this is how the fat is leaving my body...LOL 





I took a shower, got Anthony up, fed Alex, got Anthony ready for school then off I went for my weight in with my #1 fan Alexander. I was hoping for a good number, not an AMAZING ONE!!!! down 4.5 pounds in one week!!!!!!!! This is my best EVER! I thought 4.5 in two weeks was good.

Now I can't get too cocky, because that will just make me screw up. Plus I know I have weeks where nothing changes. But as along as I drink my water with my 3 lemon limit, work out every day, I will see my body change. Sometimes it won't be about the number on the scale but how much I can do physically.

I'm making a list of things I want to be able to do

• push ups - getting there
• sit ups
• climb a rock wall
• hang from the monkey bars
• move hand over hand from bar to bar on the monkey bars
• RUN - started running a little while walking with Twiggy
• do the crazy sparta race with Cheryl-  in 2014 sister not next year!
• and I want to hike in Zion National Park and see The Subway
  

I am hearing the Rocky Theme in my head a lot as I push to reach these physical goals. As far as the number on the scale goes, I can't believe how much it's moving down. I think I'm going to reach the goal I wanted for the YEAR by the end of July.

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Day 48 - 6 weeks to go

I have 6 more weeks to go until my personal 90 day challenge is over. Since I started on March 9th I have pushed myself to work out more, be extra careful if I eat out, started doing exercise moves I never thought I'd be able to do like surrenders and plank push ups and I went down two sizes! And today I noticed when I look down my stomach doesn't stick out further than my boobs.

I am totally amazed at this woman I am becoming.

I forgot to take my before picture again!!! I was trying to make sure I got my work out in before Tornado Tony came home from school.


Overall it's been a quiet afternoon with Tony hanging out with Nonna, you know her as The Saboteur.  The Roommate is on his way home, I already made him dinner so maybe he'll just leave me alone all night! I have to put together my challenge for The Amazing Digital Scrap Race, which starts on Boyfriend's birthday.

Oh they are playing a game over in the forums at the Amazing Digital Scrap Race where you have to come up with a new meaning for ADSR.
imagine you have no idea what does it means and you have only the first word :
Amazing
D.....
S.....
R.....

here are my two answers
Amazing
Discipline
Sees
Results 

Amazing
Disconnected
Soulmates
Reconnect 


Hope you have a good evening and I will see you back here tomorrow after my weigh in!
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Day 46 - I have NOTHING to wear!

I did my work out shortly after Anthony went to school. I pushed harder and was able to do 4 push ups in plank position. I remember when I couldn't even hold myself up in plank and that was just in January. Tomorrow I will try for 5, but I know it will take a few days to get it. I like these physical fitness goals I give myself, it makes my journey about being healthy and fit not just a number on the scale.

Here I am at my computer getting ready to work out and here I am with my cheering section that fell asleep while watching me work out.
As I was getting dressed to go get a hair cut I really am having problems finding things to wear that fit me correctly. My jeans are all too big. The pair I'm wearing right now are so loose, I can pull them up to my bra!  They are baggy around the knees, they just look horrible. Which is FREAKING me out because tomorrow I am volunteering at my son's school and the last thing I want to look like is a slob. So I think after I get my hair cut I'm going to go to the Avenue and see if I can find a better pair of jeans. I just can't wait to go shopping on May 12 with Jenn, just no way!
Can you tell my jeans are big in this picture???
Jackie at Moda Salon did my color, cut and blow out in less and 2 hours. I love my hair. The roommate was home by then so I dropped Alex off to him to go on my mission to find jeans. Off to the Avenue where I brought 6 pairs of jeans into the dressing room to try on.
None of those jeans worked so off to Lane Bryant I went. The woman working there all helped me find straight leg petite jeans, in the dressing room and was thrilled to get my big fat ass into those 18!! They are just a little snug around the hips but no way was I buying a 20! These 18s will last me all summer until the autumn when I will go shopping for a smaller size GRIN!!
I was so happy I looked for a new shirt, the lady handed me a 14/16!! She's crazy I took the 18/20 in the dressing room. Here I am in the 18 jeans and 18/20 shirt.

I walked out of the dressing room and now two woman are telling me the shirt is too big and tell me to try on the 14/16 All I see is my big fat belly, so now they give me a pair of spanks and send me back in. This time I try on the purple shirt.

Yeah it looks better but I still see my big fat belly. I need to do more crunches, reverse crunches and bicycle crunches. I might have to try that Jillian Michaels 6 week 6 pack again. It was so hard for me I couldn't do most of the moves, so I will add it to the 30 shred and do what I can.

I started talking with the sales lady about how long she's worked there and I said I've been shopping here for almost 20 years. She said she didn't remember seeing me before. Then since I was THE QUEEN OF THE NILE over what size shirt, she asked me about my diet. I really need to start carrying a before picture with me, so I took out my drivers license to show her. 

She looked at the picture then looked up at me and said "I know the woman in that photo but I don't know you" WOW!! And that pretty much is how I feel. I don't know this new kick ass me who's working out and has fitness goals BUT I LIKE HER!!!   

Next I try on the red shirt because I wasn't sure which color I liked
SOLD! love the red one. Even my smile was bigger. There was one last shirt I like so I tried that on too. Still a little tight but I took it. I like having GOAL CLOTHES it makes me work harder. 


Speaking of "goal clothes" this is the Quest For The Dress. I'm aiming for this to be my 'mid summer's night dream' goal dress :-) I would love to wear it when I go away mid July.

One last thing I tried on tonight.. which was really the first thing I tried on, when I went to Costco to pick up a photo card order I designed for Twiggy.

Eli who works in the photo center was busy helping a crazy lady so I waited for him to be finish and checked out the jewelry. I love love LOVE this ring, the shape of the stone, the color of the stone, which is for November which is a very special month to me and I like the diamonds around it and on the band.
The ring ALMOST fit my finger, so I asked what size it was...a SEVEN!  My Wedding band is a 9 1/2. I stopped wearing it when I started calling him The Roommate so I had no idea my rings wouldn't fit me either. I think the only ring I have in a 7 is my high school class ring.

I guess when I said the only thing that fits me is my shoes, I wasn't lying, and that's because Jenn and I just bought shoes 2 weeks ago.

I can't wait to work out tomorrow morning... OMG did I just type that?? I can't wait to WORK OUT???!!!! 

See you tomorrow after the Art Show.
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Day 45 - work out done already

Slept late, got up, fed Alex, woke Tony, fed him, threw dinner in the crock pot, Tony dressed, got him on the bus and it was ME TIME!!!!! I love this new, take no bullshit from anyone, me who works out. She awesome! Where the hell has she been all my life???? I must have been drowning her out by shoving M&Ms and chips down my mouth.

I did my 30 day shred, well I get it's 45 day shred for me...lol Before

Sweating like a pig


Took a shower, text a few friends and here I am blogging before 3pm in the afternoon with my cutie on my lap.

Too bad the weather sucks or I would call Twiggy to met us for a walk/run around the blog. So I guess I will scrap, I have to design BBQ invitations. Enjoy the rest of your Monday, see you back here tomorrow!
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