It all started....

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I had one of those nights where I tossed and turned. Besides my normal drama things aren't right with another person. I really want to work out the stupid issues but all I'm getting is the silent treatment. 

I also was up, worried I might have crossed a line and offended another friend, but thankfully all is good there. And even thou that was on my mind all night, what did I go and do? Crossed the damn line again this morning UGH!! But I'm glad I was put in my place!!

Alexander was up early, fed him and he started yawning again. I knew I'd be able to get another hour of sleep and that's what I did.

Mornings are hard keeping Anthony on focus, getting him fed and dressed. He has to go "check on his trucks" before he brushes his teeth or gets dressed. He was VERY SLOW this morning. I was trying to get him ready as well as get Alex another bottle and everything ready for me to leave the minute the bus came.

Anthony went to get his clothes out of the dresser (but I had them on the bench for him) and BAM. I go running to find a drawer on the floor broke, clothes every place. These pictures were taken tonight, because I didn't have time to do it when it happened.


NEXT...
Anthony was sitting in the living room drinking his chocolate milk, when all of the sudden it spilled every where! In hindsight I am glad he wasn't dressed because I would have to change his clothes. I couldn't even wipe him up he had to go into the shower. It was 12:15pm the bus comes at 12:30pm. I'm not dressed, Alexander isn't dressed or fed, and I'm giving Anthony a shower worried that we'd miss the bus.

Fifteen minutes later, he's cleaned, dressed and sporting his pirate stuff for Talk Like a Pirate Day

Off to school he went but I still wasn't ready and Alexander missed his lunch. Which meant I couldn't go to Costco before the doctor's to make the return, I had to do it after.  Twenty minutes later I'm in the van with my little pirate #2 off to his check up.


Talking... more doctors.. more specialist.. a bigger to do list for me and before I know it, it's 2:50pm

At 3pm I'm in Costco making my return. I'm tapping my foot, hoping I get out of there to get home to meet Anthony on the bus. The line took longer than my return, then I raced in the store to get milk and paper plates pushing Alexander in the stroller.

 I was doing a jog and thought to myself I wouldn't have been able to do this 65lbs ago!

I paid, was leaving and the MILK WAS LEAKING!! The lady at the check out said she'd have someone get me a new one, but it was 3:14pm I didn't have the time. I RAN back to the milk got a new one and RAN out of the store pushing a sleeping little pirate boy.

You know how it is when you're late, you hit every red light. As the minutes were ticking down I was totally freaking that they would pull away with him.  I reached into my pocket to put my bluetooth on, just in case they called and SNAP... broke the part that goes over the ear.

I got home with less than a minute to spare because I was speeding. I thought if a cop came after me I was just going to drive home and let him give me the ticket I couldn't pay for in front of my house so I wouldn't miss Anthony. But I got home safely!!!Alexander was sleeping by this point.

When Anthony comes home from school I make him change his clothes because they have a dress code at school and I don't want the school clothes ruined. I sat down with my cold water, checked Facebook (like it's a newspaper) and I hear "Mom, oh Mom" and this is what I find.

I do not know how I stayed calm. I do not know how I didn't kill him. He knew exactly what he was doing. Then he tells me "I'm shaving just like Dad" and my heart sank. He wants the roommate's attention so badly!

To stay calm I posted all these photos on Facebook. They finish uploading and another "Mom" from Anthony. I look and see the tape measure which he got yelled at by the roommate for playing with last night, caught in the tire of his toy truck.



I can't believe this day! I got the tape measure unstuck or that would have been another nightmare with the roommate. I made Anthony put all his school clothes in a basket and got him in the bath.

As I'm cleaning up the bathroom I find my new bottle of mouth wash on the floor almost empty. He knocked that over and I guess I didn't close the top on tight enough. This is all that's left.


I give him a bath and make him come down stairs to do the laundry with me since he made the mess. Got back upstairs by 5pm to hear Alexander crying and waking up from his nap. I quick got Anthony's left overs from last night warmed up, made him sit and eat, made a bottle and started feeding Alexander.

When I heard the backup beep beep beep sounds of the roommate's truck at 5:30.. UGH I was scared. I didn't know what he would do tonight. Less than 20 minutes later I'm yelling my standard "Just SHUT UP" to him because he's mouthing off to Anthony. 

I washed a few dishes, changed the laundry, text my cousin, shook my phone a few times hoping a text message from the one who's giving me the silent treatment would come in.. but no such luck.

7pm I wiped away my tears, got my sneakers on and was working out.. F*&$THE WORLD!!!
Before

After

Showered, Facebooked, Texted, got the kids to bed and started blogging.

I'm tired, I'm burnt out. I don't think most people believe how crazy my days are. I certainly don't think the "Silent One" understands at all!!!

I hope I sleep tonight.

Happy August 22nd!!!!

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When I left Anthony's eye doctor in July, I had a surgery date of August 8th. I then had to change Alexander's heart doctor appointment which was schedule for Aug 8th also. When they gave me the next available date I thought to myself, my lucky number 22 won't let me down.

I ended up changing Anthony's eye surgery so he could enjoy the rest of the summer and go swimming, but I didn't call Alexander's doctor to change the appointment back. I just felt my 22 would take care of me and the monitor would be coming off.

At last the day was here. I had expected to take Anthony with me but at the last minute he stayed with my mother. I knew FOR SURE it was coming off because every major important thing with Alexander, I have been the only one there with him. So off to the doctors I went, nervous and excited but confidant it was coming off.

Here Alexander is taking a little nap right before we left.


Here we are getting ready to leave.


Waiting in the waiting room

Having the exam
Woo Hoo GREAT NEWS - I'm too sexy for my monitor, too sexy for my monitor!!!

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I was so excited I didn't even get that bothered by the saboteur's annoying remarks later on in the afternoon when we did errands.

When I came home I made an anniversary dinner for the roommate and Anthony. Then to celebrate I did 30 minutes of Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. I am so happy that after not doing it for a while I was still able todo the jumping jacks and get through the whole DVD! yippie for me.

Here I am before my work out


And Sweating like a pig


I am really proud of myself that I didn't let the day get away from me and miss my work out! Now I'm going to play with photo shop for a little while and got to bed early.

Day 88 - the waiting game

At midnight I was trying to wait and see if Alexander would stop crying. I know the poor kid is teething. If I got up and stood near the crib he would stop crying. As soon as I walked away he would cry!

I got back into bed and to my surprise Anthony shows up in the bedroom.
"Mommy I can't sleep with him crying"
"Me either. He wants to have a party"
With that Anthony goes by the crib and starts talking to Alexander... this is what I remember
"It's okay brother, it's okay. Calm down. Calm down. We can have a party tomorrow. We can make a cake, we will hide and then jump out and yell SURPRISE! Because that's what you do at parties. Now go to sleep and stop crying"

It was the sweetest moment! I need to start sleeping with my camera, never mind my cell phone, so I don't miss moments like this.

Then all night long the saboteur who's been in Las Vegas for a week had to keep texting me "waiting for the bus to the airport", "waiting at the gate", "waiting on the plane to take off", "landed waiting to get our luggage" OMG WHO CARES! She didn't care about the time difference that's for sure. She's home now, which means I must avoid her at all costs until Sunday so she doesn't piss me off.

Of course nothing goes as planned and this morning Anthony was coughing so bad at 6am, the roommate called him out of school. I gave him his cough meds and he watched TV. Alex woke up at 10:30, got him a bottle and settled, checked on Anthony at 11 and he was asleep!

I quickly changed into my new work out gear and put in my Jillian Micheals No More Trouble Zones DVD. My trouble zones are happy to report I did the whole DVD and really pushed myself.

I did 2 sets of 32 jumping jacks
I didn't count how many push ups in plank, but I did a few
I also switched out one set of  surrenders for some burpees!
I'm so proud of myself!!!!!!!

The whole time I kept saying "You're Spartan training, keep going". I just need to keep pushing myself as hard as I can! I was really sweating like a pig when I was done and couldn't wait to get in the shower.



Next in my day of waiting, the stupid cheap acetone I have didn't take off my wraps. I had my nails soaking and waited and waited but nothing!

I am glad I didn't have to wait another day to work out my demon problems xoxoxo

The saboteur came up to see the boys late in the day. I didn't want her to know we were taking the boys for pictures. So while I was waiting for the roommate to come home I cut the boys hair. The saboteur took the pictures. When I saw myself in the new green tank top I wasn't disgusted by myself!



The roommate got home and showered then started getting dressed. He came to find me and asked if he was suppose to wear his suit. Sometimes I don't know how I stop myself from screaming. I told him the boys were having pictures not us! And even so, if he opened his eyes, the boys were in jeans and a t-shit and so was I!!! So he can wear his suit, he'll fit right in. I had to wait for him and then off we went.

They took cute photos. I'm really happy. I do have to go back because all the pictures weren't on the CD.



I sent the roommate to the restaurant where we are having the Christening while I waited for the photos to be printed. Of course he had to call to double check what he was suppose to do.

I wonder how it's going to feel to one day have a life where if I say something someone listens to me. I don't mind repeating myself if I was unclear with the directions. And lets face it we don't always listen so once in a while to repeat yourself okay. BUT EVERY SINGLE TIME he is out doing anything he has to call and check! Is he that unsure of himself or doesn't care, doesn't listen? I don't get it!

I'm about to write my to do list for tomorrow and then go to bed. Looking forward to hitting those trouble zones again!
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Day 51 - shorts to big

When I did my work out today I knew my shorts were to big, but I figured what difference did it make? umm... they were falling off with every jumping jack until I pulled them up higher and then rolled them down around my waist to bunch them up. Finally they stayed on, but they will need to go into the "these clothes are too big pile" I <3 that pile!!!

Today's extra push resulted in 4 sets of 22 jumping jacks and the last set was 26 jumping jacks. I couldn't push past the 2 sets of 7 push ups, but I will! Those push ups are KILLERS.

Before


I could NOT move at the end. I had to lay there for a bit.


The rest of the day has been pretty lazy, hanging and playing with the boys. I am going to scrap now and then get myself into bed early I have a date with Mr. Grey. 

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