Day 9 - Do or do not. There is no try!

thanks Yoda for today's motivation!


Some how with my new 90 day challenge attitude, I have become motivation and inspiration. Me? the fat chick is inspiring people. HOLY MOLY, this is all new to me. I hope I can keep it up and if I can't the same people give me a push.

I told everyone in my household when I got up today, everyone had to get out of the living room for me to do my 30 minutes.
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I started writing that this morning and LIFE happened!! it's after midnight now so that means it's day 10 and not day 9 anymore. I wanted to finish blogging because that's part of my challenge.

I put in level 2 of Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. How did those people on the biggest loser not drop dead on her? I thought the Surrender Exercise was a killer HA HA HA HA HA

I had a very hard time doing most of level 2 and the buckets of sweat where just pouring off me

I still can't do a full push up, I'm still on my knees but hey I couldn't do them at ALL when I started so I'm sure I'll get used to this level two in a few weeks.

I'm doing great with all the crunch moves. I remember when I couldn't do them either.

((today's photos brought to you by Ed))

The whole time I was working out I was wondering...How many Calories are in a Starbucks Tazo Chai Tea Latte?? -   answer 240

Like I said LIFE kept happening tonight and we went to dinner.
I had a salad and

and peel and eat shrimp with my 3 LEMON LIMIT ((inside joke - don't ask))


Tomorrow - well today, I will do Level 2 again of Jillian Michaels 30 day shred and sweat some more buckets.

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Day 8 - funny thing happened on the way to the doctor

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I have been pissed off all week that my scale keeps showing me up 2lbs. There's really no doubt in my mind that it was in fact up the first week of March after my melt down into that black hole I get sucked into when life sucks! I don't remember eating anything else but potato chips that week.

But I recognized what I was doing and STOPPED and my 90 challenge was born. I know there might be times when I can't work out or I eat other food, so it's a 90 day 90% on target challenge. That gives me a -little- wiggle room, like for CAKE on my birthday. (cousin Chris if you read my blog I like cannoli cake, but one little cannoli with a candle will do!)


I weighed myself again last night and the damn scale still said up 2lbs. I headed to Dr. Ransom's with all the positives on my mind that happened this week and WOW there was a lot to be proud about.

1. I met the goal to work out 180 minutes in a week
2. I went OVER that goal by 30 minutes
3. I drank more than 8 glasses of water a day
4. I did the surrender exercise!
5. I blogged every day
6. and most importantly I am really learning to recognize when I slip up and when I'm doing great!

I got on that super duper scale that tells you the fat weight, muscle weight and water weight, closed my eyes and hoped for the best. I heard Carmon say "you're down 2 pounds" WHAT?!?!? DOWN!!!!!!!!!! I could not wipe the smile off my face! My evil scale had lied to me all week.

I am now only 6 pounds away from my lowest weigh in before I took the pregnancy test and 16 days away from when that lowest weigh in happened last year! I have 2 weigh ins to go. I don't want to make myself crazy and push for 3lbs a week but I will be THRILLED if the weigh in before my birthday puts me right where I was last year.

I left the doctor's office with that smile, put Alexander in the van and played my theme song for the year over and over until we were home.


I came in the door, put Alexander in the pack n play, put in that evil woman Jillian Michaels, changed my clothes and did my 30 minute work out! I knew I had to get it in right then or it would be more difficult as the day went on.
before:

after:


I was still smiling from my 2lbs down even after doing EIGHT of those kick ass Surrender Exercise!

Sure enough if I didn't get the work out in, I would be struggling right now with my crazy 4 year old, a crying 4 month old and my husband to get time for myself to work out for 30 minutes. I am not sure how I'm going to do it this weekend but I'll figure it out.

I am glad I pushed myself to get past day 5, I was really tired and could have just stopped working out. I am feeling GREAT!!!!!!!

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Day 7 - Why am I doing this?

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I must be crazy, this is torture! All my muscles are burning. My thighs hurt going up and down my stairs and I keep asking myself why am I doing this??

answers:
1. so I don't die from a heart attack or other obesity related disease
2. so I won't be insulin resistance any more
3. to teach my boys you can do anything with hard work
4. I don't want to stop my boys from doing things just because I am too fat to do it too.
5. because I don't want a gastric bypass.


bonus answers:
1. to walk into a room and not say to myself "you're the fattest one here"
2. to stop buying clothes in plus size stores. I don't even know what sizes are out of a plus size store.
3. to own a little black dress
4. I want to run a marathon
5. and come on, the sex just has to be even better if I can be flipped around or upside down! Like this one looks like fun, and if I can get into that bridge position then these works outs are really working!

My stupid stupid scale totally hates me this week it's still saying I am up 2lbs. I am going to cry when I get to my weigh in on Friday.

I am still pushing myself. In the past I would have stopped dieting because the scale didn't move. But I noticed my stomach seems to be in more on the sides and I didn't get sick looking at a picture of me from behind! So something is working.

I was planning on doing Jillian Michaels again today and push myself to do more of those killer Surrender Exercise but the throbbing in my thighs hasn't
stopped since I did them yesterday. When I was laying in bed last night my quadriceps were on fire. Good thing I went to massage school, I kept rubbing them until they didn't hurt anymore.  So I'll be skipping Ms. Michaels and doing Debbie Sieber today.

I'll be back to continue blogging after my kid is on the bus and I do my work out. (11am)
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(back 3pm)

There is something wrong with me!! at the very last minute I switched DVDs from nice sweet Debbie Siebers who shows you other ways to do something if you cant or lets you march in place when it's to much to that mean b!t(h who yells at you Jillian Michaels!

I pushed myself and when she got to the surrenders I kept saying "come on 7!" and started giggling and thinking of this scene from Friends.


I did it, another day, sweating like a pig.. do pigs even sweat?


Not only did I make it to my goal minutes this week, I surpassed it! But I'm still going to kick and scream and CRY at my weigh in tomorrow at 1pm MY SCALE IS UP BY 2LBS!!!!

And to all my SKINNY friends who are checking on me, GET YOUR BUTTS UP AND MOVE!! if my fat ass has worked out 210 minutes this week, YOU CAN WORK OUT 10 MINUTES TODAY!!!!!!!!!!

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Day 5 - is that really me?

I saw friends over the weekend and we were looking at a wedding picture from their wedding. I asked her to email me pictures from her wedding because I had to look at myself again. I am at my heaviest weight here, not counting when I was pregnant with the boys, add 30lbs.

I see a big difference! I really need to get the "saboteur" out of my head because you can too see I lost weight!! She's just BLIND!!

Me Sept 5 2005

me in the dressing room on Saturday March 10, 2012


You can really see the difference in my face. left is from 2009 6 months before I started my diet. The right is from March 2012 and as I was taking the picture I was thinking "Oh My God I'm pregnant"


Today I'm going to work out to Debbie Siebers's Slim in 6! I'm even working out earlier than normal. go me!!!

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pictures from today

the only photo I took during the work out

my sweaty face before I jumped in the shower

my set up of shakes for the day

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another workout

Today I did some of the Jillian Michaels. Damn she's hard for me but I knew if I did the same workout from yesterday I wouldn't make 10 minutes. My legs are killing me from yesterday.

less than 10 minutes into my workout Alexander started screaming, so I turned around and faced him while he was sitting in his little chair. I know he doesn't understand what mommy is doing, but I felt like screaming "shut up kid, don't you want to go bike riding with mommy or go to a water park?"

I am holding him in my left arm right now as I type with one hand.

Ha I really thought I was smiling! you can see how red my face is from the workout!

I'm done...now I just need to stick to my diet again today...GO ME!


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I did it!

I did the 24 minutes of the "start it up" section of Debbie Sieber's Slim in 6 I really like that there is a countdown clock for the whole work out and each area we are working on also has it's own clock. That really helped to keep me going.

After 10 minute I wanted to stop but just pushed myself. I even put my camera on its timer to get a few pictures. I just looked at the pictures and HATE how I look. But isn't that the point? I hate how I look so I am doing something about it. I decided to post one of the pictures to keep myself motivated.

I need to keep going. I don't want to miss out on fun stuff with my boys because mommy is too fat. I want to ride a bike with my boys, take them to a water park and take a trip on a plane without worrying if I will fit in the seat.

Losing weight also means cuter clothes, maybe getting checked out once in while and better sex *grin*!!!

so here's to me on my first work out day and sticking to my diet. Now I need a shower!

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down 3.5 this week!!!

Totally amazing!! I knew I felt it but I thought it would be 1.5 MAYBE 2lbs not 3.5. I started crying when the scale showed the number. I even asked "is that right?"

Now I really need to make it my mission this week to work out again. I should just stop what I'm doing and when I put my older one on the bus do a work out. Okay that's the plan for Monday... 1pm put a work out dvd in and do my best.

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Hello out there!

If you wondered where the heck I went, here's the answer

I found out I was pregnant and of course you can't diet while pregnant.
My baby boy was born via emergency c-section at 34 weeks gestation.
here's a video I put together

Make a video - it's fun, easy and free!
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I'm back on my diet! I changed my weight ticker to my weight on the day I gave birth. Today is my first weigh in and I'm excited.
My first goal is to get back into the jeans I was wearing the day I found out I was pregnant!



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Not much to say today

Went to my weigh in. I'm down one pound. It's always nice to move my weight ticker over. I am going to reset my exercise ticker too, but I don't see getting a work out in today. It'll have to be first thing in the morning when I get up tomorrow.

happy dieting :-)

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Today I feel beat down...

We all have those days...those emotional draining days. That's when I usually eat, eat and eat...but today I didn't!

Today started out okay enough... my husband woke me up early and even thou I didn't want to get out of bed and even laid back down for a while, I picked myself up and did Ramp It Up section of Slim in 6® . I knew I had to get it done before the meeting I had about my son at 11:30.

This workout is hard. I do my best and keep up. I thought the first half was bad but now that I'm doing the whole 47 minutes the 2nd half with the resistance bands makes me sweat more. I swear to you I am seeing a difference in my body already. My sides and waste are feeling smaller, my arms are feeling stronger. And the best is, today when I got dressed, I looked down and didn't see my stomach sticking out past my boobs.

I'm really glad I got that work out in, because after the meeting I was too drained to do anything more than run a few errands. I even napped with my son this afternoon.

Tomorrow is my weekly weigh in. I'm hoping for big numbers, no whammies. I am very excited to tell Dr. Ransom that I did 3 hours of exercise this week. I am hoping to see my muscle mass up!!

I'll keep you posted... well I mean I'll write my skinny self a another entry tomorrow.

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There's a thin girl inside me trying to get out!

And she's taken control!! I worked out again today. One more workout and I will have actually made the 3 hour mark that Dr. Ransom wants me to make every week. The most I've done in a week is just about 2 hours. I know I can do it.

We had things to do this morning and while out my son fell asleep before we got home. I carried him up the stairs...all 40lbs of him.. it was hard..I kept thinking I used to carry that much weight on my body. My scale has me down 40lb but the doctor's scale is 5lbs difference. Anyway, I knew it was a perfect time to go work out. I put him in bed and did the Ramp It Up section of Slim in 6®

My shoulders are killing me. The resistance band part is amazing and hard. I am feeling the burn as they say so I know I'm doing it right. As I'm sweating and it's burning, I keep thinking "I want to wear shorts this summer". Plus we have a wedding to go to in June that my son is the ring bearer. I want to look good and wear a dress. I can do it!!!

I am really looking forward to my weigh in this week. With all the exercising I'm doing I am hoping to see my muscle mass go up. My personal scale hasn't moved at all. It sometimes happens when I'm getting close to that time of the month or it could be because I'm burning fat and building muscle.

That's it from me.
Tomorrow is another day.

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I did it!!

My whole body is shaking and I have jello legs again but I did it, I finished the Ramp It Up section of Slim in 6®. The last few minutes of stretching all I could think of was "I need a shower" so I stopped the DVD and jumped in the shower.

I really can feel this work out working. Yesterday I really felt like my waist was smaller so I had my husband do my measurements. Sure enough 2.5 inches off my waste, 3 off my hips, 2.5 off my thighs and 2 off my arms. I'm amazed! That side oblique crunch she has you do is a killer. I showed my THIN husband the move last night, he did one and said "that's hard". Debbie Siebers says in the DVD "if you do this every day your waste will get thinner"...SHE'S RIGHT!!

This is only my 3rd week doing her DVD. I hardly worked out in December and gained back 2lbs...which to me was great considering all the eating I did all month long. So anyway I know darn well that the inches I got off didn't happen between Thanksgiving and New Years..They happened after New Years when I started giving 100% again.

I am really feeling good and I feel thin.. by no means am I THIN!! I am still in that "Morbid Obesity" category. But working out every day, sticking to my diet plan as dropped my BMI almost 10 points. Just a little more work and I move out of Mordid Obesity into Obesity yippie...lol what a funny thing to be cheering for, but it's the little steps that are keeping me going!!

I watched Heavy on A&E last night. Anyone see it? Wait, I'm still talking to myself.. nobody is reading my blog, so of course nobody saw it, nobody is here! Well it was inspiring. Hard work, diet and exercise does work...no need to jump on that gastric bypass band wagon. I've had several friends who went that route and some of them have gained the weight back!! What did they learn? Did they work out? nope!! so none of their habits changed and they still are eating unhealthy foods.

I have one friend Cheryl who fought with her weight and with hard work and exercise she's at a healthy weight! You can read her success story here.

Well my son is jumping all around asking for an apple, guess my blogging is over! I hope it's nap time soon, we've been up since 5:30.

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Happy Monday

It always makes me feel good when I wake up and the number on the scale has gone down. I know experts will tell you to only weigh yourself once a week.. well I have my official weigh ins on Fridays.. but it helps me stay in check to look at that number every day!!!

I did my work out already for the day. Yippee.. but man are my legs killing me. I am currently working out to Slim in 6®. This is my third week using the program. I did great the first week on Start It Up section. Last week I did 2 days of Start It Up and then did one day on Ramp It Up.

Ramp It Up is kicking my big fat ass!! I've only been able to get through half of that section. When she gets to the part where you need your training bands my legs are like jello so I haven't done the 2nd half YET!! I did find my training bands thank goodness, so I'm all set when I'm not shaking like jello legs...Jello legs makes me think of "spaghetti arms" :-)

Yesterday it really felt like my waste might have gotten smaller. I haven't done measurements since November. Maybe it's time to do them again. I just checked, the last time I did measurements was right before Halloween. It's totally time to measure my big fat ass!!

Now in case you're following my blog.. HA HA I know I'm talking to myself.. you'll notice a bunch of changes. First I renamed the blog address. Calling it my big fat ass blog and not using that as the address seemed silly. Next I made a fat ass cartoon and made the header and changed the blog colors.. nice huh? Well I think so. It makes me smile.

It's taken me almost an hour to write this post because I keep getting up to check on my son. He just asked for a snack of APPLE!! I am so happy, I'm doing something right. What a healthy snack. I cut up the apple for him and gave him 4 baby spoons with soy peanut butter on it.

I'm so happy that's what he asks for. I don't want him to have a weight problem. I know if I teach him healthy eating habits now, he will continue with them as an adult. He's even been doing some of the exercises with me!

Healthy eating wasn't even talked about in my house growing up. My mother had the junk food lined up on the counter. I could grab a pop tart any time I wanted and there was no mentoring how many of those double packages I ate!! Then when we visited my father the drive threw was our best friend. Eating Burger King in the back seat of his car was our normal dinner when we visited him.

Now it's time for me to go play SAHM and fold all the laundry, finish the shopping list and play with my son.

have a good day
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down 1/2lb

so the scale said I'm down a half pound. In the past I would have been pissed but I'm not. Like I said my doctor at the center for medical weight loss has an awesome scale. I lost a pound of fat this week. That's GREAT!! and because I'm working out my muscle mass went up 1/2 lb. So that's why the scale only showed a 1/2 loss.

I'm not upset, not discouraged... I would be if I was only going by a normal scale. I'd feel like I have been working hard and it's not moving.. but the fact is it is moving... there's more to it than just a single number on the scale.

I hope to be able to get a work out in today, but with life there is always unexpected problems. So I'm hoping my husband comes home early so I can get some work out time in. If not that's the first thing I'm doing when I get up tomorrow.

Still Fat in NJ but feeling better!!