My blog is a mess, I'm a mess

I haven't done anything right for myself this year. It has been the most stressful year of my life. When I'm stressed I eat.  I don't want to be fat, I don't want to be a mess. But I am. Now slowly I have to fight back. I need to stop asking myself WHY can't I do it. And just do it.
in 2012 I was focused and lost 70lbs. So I know I can do this. I just don't have the support team I did then, I'm more alone. So I really need to find my strength again.
The kids start school next week. I have to walk my youngest to the bus stop. That's up and down a hill 2x a day. I'll track it with my app next week. The walking will help.
Today I'm just sticking to the plan that works for me. And I plan on coming here to blog to you.. to myself. I don't feel good right now and I want to. So that's my focus. I need to get myself out of this mess I'm in.
Maria

Go me!

I am so proud of myself. The inner thin healthy girl is currently in the driver seat. I love her. I love her motivation. I love her focus. She talked me through my 10 minute work out this morning while Fat Girl me fought back the tears. FG knows she's one peanut butter cup away from a heart attack. Thin Girl told her to keep going and finish strong. She remindered her of reasons she's doing this, to be apart of my children's lives longer. To be around to see Grandchildren.
Fat people don't live long. When was the last time you saw a fat 80 year old? My life expectancy is probably in the 60s right now. I need to change that and I will change that.
Thin Girl also reminded Fat Girl about the cute clothes she could wear. And day dreamed about wearing a bikini, he'll even a bathing suit that wasn't a moo-moo.
I realize I will need a body lift. I already have skin sagging. I will find a doctor to talk to when I get to 150lb. Right now my focus is on loosing 5lbs. And I'm going great. I already see a difference in the scale from earlier this week. I won't count how much I lost until I have been working out a week. Next Tuesday is official weigh in for me.
So to recap, working out for my kids, grandkids that I dream about, cute clothes and a bikini, oh and sex! Lots and lots of sex!!! Not to toot my own horn, but sex with me is already pretty great according to my last lover. I can't imagine what it would be like if I was thin enough to try some of those positions on sexinfo101!
Time to hit the shower and have an amazing day where I stick to my meal plan, drink water, SMILE and believe in myself.
Go Maria, you've got this!

Just 10 minutes

That's the deal I made with myself this week. Just a 10 minute work out every day.
I need to listen to myself, there is a skinny chick inside me who wants to come out.
So I did it. 10 minutes. Go me!

One small step

I'm not giving up. I need to believe in myself. I do believe in myself. I know I can do this. Working out is a key for me. I did a 10 minute work out. I feel my legs shaking. That's good.
Yesterday I did well with food, pat on the back for me. If I want to succeed I need a plan. My plan is a work out every morning.
Congratulate yourself Maria, you aren't giving up.

Be your own cheerleader

Maria, you can do this. Small steps will make positive changes. Small work outs will lead to longer ones.
Pat on the back for another work out. Now drink your water today and make healthy choices on food.
Good job, see you tomorrow morning.
Xoxo
Maria

Good habits

I am working towards building good habits. I know from my most successful weight loss what works for me is to work out in the am, blog about it, drink lots of water and have 1800 calories a day.
I went to bed last night feeling determined. Got up this morning feeling the same way.
Put my son on the bus and did a 20 minute work out.
Now I need to cross 8 glasses of water of my list and follow my diet plan :)

stupid cold

● ● ● ● ● ● ● ●
I started fighting this stupid cold Saturday afternoon. Sunday evening after the Ren Fair I just wasn't myself. I wanted to buy myself something this year at the fair but was so out of it I couldn't even find anything I liked. Oh well, I did have a good time with my kiddies and friends. Even the roommate was okay.

NY Renaissance Festival 2012

● ● ● ● ● ● ● ●

I pretty much slept since Sunday night when ever I could. This cold really knocked me out. Today I was determined to clean up the house and work out. And I've done just that!

When Alexander went down for his 2nd nap I put in that evil Jillian Michaels and did level 2 of the 30 Day Shred. Oh My God I can't believe I can do a walk out push up! ME the fat girl! Holy Shit. It's just amazing to me that I can do that.

Before

Talk about sweating like a pig, there's sweat down my chest. I couldn't wait to get in the shower.

I bought a dress for Cheryl's wedding in January. So it's Quest for the dress #2!!! I can't believe what size I ordered! I'm scared to even type it out because I might jinx myself.

I am really going to try not to focus on the size dress. But of course I'm worried. I don't remember wearing anything smaller than a 16... which I'm wearing right now! I'm just going to focus on my work out goals.

No work out today...

● ● ● ● ● ● ● ●

I really don't know where the days go. This summer is flying by. I was working on a contest most of the day and I have nothing to show for it!! I am too picky with my art work.

I hope I can whip something up on Sunday. The deadline is Monday.

Between taking care of the kids, folding clothes, working on this contest I finally opened all the presents from Alexander Christening. The boy is rich! Okay maybe not  rich but he will be. I will be putting all his money into the same investments I have his brother's money in. I'm trying to give my boys a head start in life.

At 7:30 pm I went food shopping with Twiggy instead of a walk.  I didn't get home until 10:30pm after all our stops.

Even though I didn't work out I wanted to blog because I know keeping a record of what I'm doing helps me stay focused.

Tomorrow I'm meeting Angel and going to an amusement park with the kids. I won't get an official work out in either, but I'll be walking around a lot so that's going to count for something!

I'm a very emotional person!

● ● ● ● ● ● ● ●

My moods are directly effected by the ones closest to me. And when there is too much chaos I'm in that black hole!!  Yeah I don't really want to hear I shouldn't let them bother me, because if I had figured that out I wouldn't have shoved food in my mouth all these years and I wouldn't be the moody bitch from hell that I am.

One of my BIGGEST problems is the roommate's hoarding!!! I feel like the house is falling in on me. I'm too overwhelmed with all of it, I can't figure out what to do or how to handle it. I have had people tell me throw it all out, but he goes ape shit and is scarey when you throw out his stuff... yeah yeah I can hear you guys.. call the police? Sure I call the police he gets pulled out of here, Anthony is screaming and crying, it'll be a scene. Then fine he's out.. then he'll go sleep on his Aunt's sofa or something. My biggest fear is that his family will make him cut off the money. And it's the boys who will suffer the most. I have to do this carefully and slowly.

I have been trying to clean the dining room for almost 2 weeks and it doesn't look like I did ANYTHING!!! I keep taking before pictures and there isn't one "AFTER" photo yet. Lets see how I do today.

Here is the dining room last week.




Here is the dining room today and I swear it's worse!




After 3 hours of sorting and folding and putting away here's what I had.




The minute the table was free of the clutter Anthony asked me to build him train tracks. I wonder if there's a job out there for me building train sets :-) That took me another hour to put the track together and make the bridges.




Then I continued to sort the ton of clothes.  From left to right; size 24 months/ 2t - size 12 & 18 months - to sell on ebay - stuff I want to keep and the basket in the bottom right corner is to get rid of ASAP.




What you can't see on the other side of the table are boxes from the roommate filled with stupid stuff that he thinks is important. I opened one box to see what was in there. No surprise books and junk.




That little box on the left of the above picture has this shit in it. Do you think ANY of that is important? I bet only 5 or so things are worth saving. Look there's a pen, key chain, blots, plastic wrappers from something, pieces of wire  and papers.  THIS IS WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO HIM!!! This is the crap that is in his storage unit. Look under that yellow paper in the plastic bag down on the right, under that is a scratched off lottery.



I could just throw it out but I don't want to suffer any more drama. His screaming at Anthony is more than I can handle. So I'm going to make him just move this crap to his storage unit tomorrow or Sunday.

I have a plan for that stupid storage unit too. Next year when I do the taxes, I'm making him open his own bank account and putting money in it. . I will also set up his pay check to deposit some money into that account as well. I will change the storage unit to come out of that account. I will tell him that his account, he can do whatever he wants with it.  Give it some time and he'll blow through that money and won't have enough for his storage unit and I don't give a crap what happens after that!! He needs his own account and needs to learn how to take care of his money.

I somehow did the dishes, cooked dinner, cleaned off the counter, fed the kids, sorted more clothes, bagged up 2 bags to give away, another 2 baskets of clothes to give to someone who needs clothes and then......

Anthony asked "Can we go to the park?" it was just about 7pm at this point. I opened the back door, decided it wasn't too hot and packed the cooler with drinks. The bags of clothes to get rid of went in the van. I sent the roommate and Anthony off to do that and then go to the park, while I pushed Alexander in the stroller for 1 1/2 hours!!! which equals 3 miles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did a drive around the blocks to figure out a route that equaled a mile. I ended up with 1.3 miles. I was running out of daylight but really was pushing to get the last round done. But when Alex started crying I knew he needed to be fed so I didn't finish the last loop around the dead end. If I had finished I would have done 3.9 miles but since I didn't finish I'm estimating it was 3 miles or so.

Some of it I ran but mostly I walked. I was so grateful for all the people who water their lawn at night. I parked the stroller and ran through the sprinklers. Talk about sweating like a pig. My legs are BURNING but I feel sooooooooooooooooooo good!!!!! 

When my phone went off and I heard "wwoo hoo text message" that just pushed me more. I'm amazed how when those who matter most to me are around how much better I feel. I think it proves I need to get away from the saboteur and the roommate who bring me down!!! Oh and lets add my brother into that mix too!!!

I am also thrilled to report I stayed 100% on my diet plan! Go me! What a day. I have plans to push myself again tomorrow. Work more on the dining room, swim with the kids and walk again. And most of all I can't wait to hear my phone say "wooo hoo text message" all day long! GOT THAT?????????



 

Day 84 - Karma just hit you in the pinky toe

My fat ass some how lost 3 more pounds this week, maybe in my pinky toe. I don't know how and I feel undeserving. I only got in one hour of working out. I've been stressed, upset and crying for days...over all just a big mess, even my hair hurts.

I talked to my doctor about how I have been feeling and guess what I have to do? Test my blood sugar because he thinks it might be dropping!

That's new, dropping is not the issue I used to have. So I'll get my tester out and get it ready for when I feel wacky. I need something to blame for my moodiness and low blood sugar sounds GREAT! Otherwise I have to blame someone else but karma just smacked them in the pinky toe for me and I grinned!

I hate this t-shirt, I should have worn one of my new shirts. I guess I should just pack up that bottom draw of shirts and get rid of them.  I wore my shorts to the doctors today and then to do my errands. I haven't worn shorts out of the house in years! No decades!! The last time I wore shorts out of the house was when I lived in Clifton.


I can hear the voices in my head telling me "you can't go out like that", "you can't wear shorts", "you can't have your arms out", "you can't have your legs out", "YOU LOOK HORRIBLE" those voices are followed by "You'll be pretty if you only lose weight" I wish I could just shut them up but I don't think they will ever go away.

When the roommate gets home we are going out to Target with the kids. I need to get formula for Alexander and Anthony wants to "shop" I really would like a new mirror for the back of the bedroom door too but then you'd see the hoarder's mess more!

Thanks for reading My Big Fat @$$

Day 72 - Jimmy & Alisa's Wedding

My cousin's wedding was beautiful! I was looking forward to it all month because I was going ALONE!

What I didn't expect was for me to feel so shitty listening to the ceremony and hearing all the things that are WRONG with me and the roommate. I loved how the vows included Alisa's daughter Chloe.

During the vows the minister said "the partner of my soul" I really don't know if they repeated it or if he kept talking because that phrase was swarming around in my head. I'll have to go back and check my cousin's Christopher's video.

Here's a photo of the happy family, which is my favorite photo I've seen of the night.



Before I got myself too trashed I took a picture of how I looked in the bathroom at the Brownstone. I brought my little purple sweater with me wore it when I got a little cold. I am really happy I went with the black dress, I like how it looks on me. I hope I get to wear it again.. anyone having a party soon?



I only ate at the cocktail hour, I was full when the dinner was set up! The food was delicious. The beefsteak at The Brownstone is so yummy!! I loved the Italian tray and the seafood bar too. I just kept eating and eating at the cocktail hour, then continued drinking until I was louder than my normal loud mouth self....however it didn't help the lonely feeling I was trying to drown out, it made it worse. I really hate being in this relationship.



I got my drunk ass home via the saboteur, who couldn't be bothered to say I looked nice, but her eyes bugged out of her head when she saw me. Could be because she hated what I wore... which is what I'm leaning towards. I'm sure didn't like something.

This makes day 3 of not working out!

Thanks for reading My Big Fat @$$

Day 68 - thin?!?

When my friend Jenn saw the picture of me in the black dress her response was "omg u r so thin!!!" Wow "thin" is not a word I have heard to describe me. And yet the last month I have heard "skinny" too. I have a long way to go but it's so wonderful to hear people can see a difference....because you know around here I am invisible at any weight.

I was super tired when Anthony woke me up at 6:45am. I couldn't even keep my eyes open. I got him back in bed, put the TV on and curled up next to him until 9am.

I cleaned up the house a little and got the monkey to school. Then it was work out time. This No More Trouble Zones is KILLING ME!!!!!!! It is so much harder than 30 Day Shred. I tried to push myself to finish the whole 40 minutes but by the 30 minute mark I was toast.I really want to try yoga  next but don't know where to start, guess I have to go DVD hunting for that.






I showered and put on my sun dress to get Anthony off the bus. Hold onto your seats because the saboteur said I looked cute in the dress.  I really can't wear this out, I haven't found a bra that I can wear with this and holds up the girls. So it's my around the house sun dress.







I got the mail and was so happy to find my new lemon cutting board!!!






Look the company that makes it is Dexas! I happen to know Dex very well and his ass is nice too..lol





Got my rug rat off the bus and upstairs. While he played I cleaned off the counter and put my new lemon cutting board down and had a BIG smile on my face thinking about a future where I'll have lemon accents in my kitchen and maybe collect salt shakers.. just the salt not pepper :-)

My grin was uncontrollable by this point and I even imagined the band on my ring finger will be engraved with "I Know" on the inside.  I put my last 3 lemons in a glass vase on top of my cutting board took another photo and started washing the dishes.



I made pasta tonight because it's quick and easy. I knew Twiggy was coming over so we could go over her list for her BBQ. She had everything pretty well organized already, guess she just wanted a second opinion.

We headed out to the Shop Rite to pick up a few things on sale that she needed. We were done so early that when I got home I went right back out again to the mall so I could hunt down a pair of shorts for myself.

I tried on shorts and crops, that's what they are calling capri pants now.  I got my fat ass into a size 16 short, with only a little issue getting it buttoned.. and then I realized, it's not my BIG FAT ASS anymore that is the problem, it's my BIG FAT STOMACH!!  Damn that thing is pissing me off.  That's why I have the moody face in the photo below

The shorts are fine, I can't believe how my legs are shaping up now. but UGH that stomach. More crunches for me. I'm going to have to wear my spank under these shirts because that roll is not pretty! But at least I have a pair of shorts for the summer.  I'll take another pictures at the end of the summer wearing these shirts and shorts to see the difference.  

It's late I'm tired, I'm going right to bed now! 
Thanks for reading My Big Fat @$$

Day 49 - I wanna celebrate and live my life

This is my song of the day

Today I did 5 sets of 20 jumping jacks and 2 sets of 7 push ups! In January I couldn't do any of that!! In 4 short months I am seeing such a change in my attitude, my endurance and my clothes! Its really so hard for me to believe it's this simple.

You just have to push yourself a little bit at a time, THERE'S NO EXCUSE. Just get your ass up and do something for 30 minutes a day, WALK, jog in place, jumping jacks. I started out "sweatin to the oldies" because that's all I could do. Now I'm keeping up with that evil b!tch Jillian Michaels... is it just me? or does her voice get on your nerves too?? I have to mute the b!tch and put on music.

I did my work out before Anthony was even awake




I swear I just sweat buckets!!! Maybe this is how the fat is leaving my body...LOL 





I took a shower, got Anthony up, fed Alex, got Anthony ready for school then off I went for my weight in with my #1 fan Alexander. I was hoping for a good number, not an AMAZING ONE!!!! down 4.5 pounds in one week!!!!!!!! This is my best EVER! I thought 4.5 in two weeks was good.

Now I can't get too cocky, because that will just make me screw up. Plus I know I have weeks where nothing changes. But as along as I drink my water with my 3 lemon limit, work out every day, I will see my body change. Sometimes it won't be about the number on the scale but how much I can do physically.

I'm making a list of things I want to be able to do

• push ups - getting there
• sit ups
• climb a rock wall
• hang from the monkey bars
• move hand over hand from bar to bar on the monkey bars
• RUN - started running a little while walking with Twiggy
• do the crazy sparta race with Cheryl-  in 2014 sister not next year!
• and I want to hike in Zion National Park and see The Subway
  

I am hearing the Rocky Theme in my head a lot as I push to reach these physical goals. As far as the number on the scale goes, I can't believe how much it's moving down. I think I'm going to reach the goal I wanted for the YEAR by the end of July.

Thanks for reading My Big Fat @$$

Day 47 - Art Show

 I can't stop smiling from this wonderful day.  I knew I had to get my work out in before I left to help at my son's school. This morning I had to get a file over to Twiggy and then I was making plans for the tournament I'm going to in July, I was so busy I forgot to take my before picture.

It took me longer than I thought to get myself ready and pack everything I needed for the day, but when I was finally dressed and ready to walk out of the house I FELT GREAT IN MY NEW CLOTHES. When I walked into the school gym, Anthony's aid said she hadn't seen me in a long time and I looked great. I really love that people are noticing, it really makes me want to work harder. I felt so good, that I swear I even felt taller. I walked around help set up and did whatever they asked me to do.


When the saboteur got there with my Aunt and Uncle she would make this pissy face every time someone said they could see how much weight I lost.

When my friend Denise's sister and parents got there, the saboteur actually walked away with her pissy face. I had such a GRIN because I knew it was eating at her. She just loves to tell me how fat I am but she can't really do that with everyone else saying they can see the change.

Boyfriend told me to ask to borrow her clothes and then give them back and say they are too big. I think what happen tonight was better! But I will sneak into her room and put on a pair of her jeans to check to see if they are too big. Then I'll be doing the happy dance :-)

You might be wondering why it's such a big deal about her. In 2009 I found this doctor I asked her for MONTHS to watch Anthony for me to go and see what it was about. She was too busy, or she forgot, or she had things to do. Meanwhile she was losing weight and looking good and every time she had on something new I told her she looked good. Her replies were always something nasty like "I'm starving myself" or "I go to be hungry" crap like that. She was saying this to other people too. I don't know why it's so hard to say "Thank you, I'm working hard"

One day I was out of milk so I went into her apartment to borrow some. In her refrigerator was all these bottles of shakes. I took one out, looked at it and read that it was from The Center for Medical Weight Loss. I went back upstairs and cried and cried. I couldn't believe she was that much of a B!TCH to actually go to the doctor I had been trying to get too. And this is not the first time she did this to me with a diet.

She SCREAMED at me in 6th grade when I was 100lbs and had started developing in 2nd grade and hit puberty by 4th! By 6th grade when all my friends were just starting to get boobs, I was done growing and a kid in a woman's body with a C cup. I was NOT FAT! I know that now, but I didn't know it then. She put me on a diet making me eat things I still hate. She swore she would do the diet with me.

One day she forgot to pack the dressing for my salad in my lunch, because she was a teacher in the school I was in, I went to the teachers room to ask her for some of her dressing. I hoped the door to the teachers room, looked for her and saw her sitting there having Chinese food and not the gross salad she packed for me. I looked at her, started to cry and walked out. She didn't come after me, she didn't talk to me that night and that was the end of that diet. I had a sandwich the next day.

There is something wrong with this woman. This is not how you should act with your children. There's nothing I wouldn't do to help my children, especially when it comes to their health. All of you who know all the details of my two boys know that's true. I need to be healthy enough to raise them, I need to be a good roll model. The have to learn good habits from me! 

Back to the Art Show...I am going to have to give in and say boyfriend is right, people are sensing my confidence because several people (mostly guys) were asking about the frames and how much.  One guy was talking to me so long that his wife came over and gave him a dirty look. I thought it was funny! I was pushing around a baby in a stroller after all.

We took a few pictures of my little artist. Here he is holding up his Andy Warhol inspired sponge painting of his name and a few favorite letters.

And this is my favorite of me and my little artist. He even has a Wubbzy Artist eye patch on.

 I posted this on facebook tonight to brag about my little masterpiece. I was NOT expecting the comments that followed:

Cousin Chris posts: Look how skinny his mom is getting!!!! I saw you 3 - 4 weeks ago, and you've definitely lost visibly since then!
Cheryl said: MAria: you look aawesome!!!!
Cousin Arlena said: You really look great in this pix! Great job!
Cara said: Oh my heck, girlie.... you look fantastic!
Jenn said: you are the incredible shrinking woman....just amazing!
Kelly M. said: you look amazing, keep up the good work!!!

And the grin from their comments and likes has been on my face for HOURS!! Even when the roommate started fighting with me, I started fighting back, but then stopped myself and said "You are NOT worth it" because he couldn't find WIPES when the whole case was on the floor next to him!


And the last BIG thing of today, The Center for Medical Weight Loss asked me "Do you mind if we post your pic to give everyone a bit of encouragement?" and "Would also love to have you on our main site as a Success Story!"
 I told them I'm not a success yet!!! I'm a "getting there" story

See you tomorrow after I do my work out!!! And again I can't wait to do it. I am going to add in a little of the ab dvd too, then I'll really be sweating like a pig.
Thanks for reading My Big Fat @$$

Day 46 - I have NOTHING to wear!

I did my work out shortly after Anthony went to school. I pushed harder and was able to do 4 push ups in plank position. I remember when I couldn't even hold myself up in plank and that was just in January. Tomorrow I will try for 5, but I know it will take a few days to get it. I like these physical fitness goals I give myself, it makes my journey about being healthy and fit not just a number on the scale.

Here I am at my computer getting ready to work out and here I am with my cheering section that fell asleep while watching me work out.
As I was getting dressed to go get a hair cut I really am having problems finding things to wear that fit me correctly. My jeans are all too big. The pair I'm wearing right now are so loose, I can pull them up to my bra!  They are baggy around the knees, they just look horrible. Which is FREAKING me out because tomorrow I am volunteering at my son's school and the last thing I want to look like is a slob. So I think after I get my hair cut I'm going to go to the Avenue and see if I can find a better pair of jeans. I just can't wait to go shopping on May 12 with Jenn, just no way!
Can you tell my jeans are big in this picture???
Jackie at Moda Salon did my color, cut and blow out in less and 2 hours. I love my hair. The roommate was home by then so I dropped Alex off to him to go on my mission to find jeans. Off to the Avenue where I brought 6 pairs of jeans into the dressing room to try on.
None of those jeans worked so off to Lane Bryant I went. The woman working there all helped me find straight leg petite jeans, in the dressing room and was thrilled to get my big fat ass into those 18!! They are just a little snug around the hips but no way was I buying a 20! These 18s will last me all summer until the autumn when I will go shopping for a smaller size GRIN!!
I was so happy I looked for a new shirt, the lady handed me a 14/16!! She's crazy I took the 18/20 in the dressing room. Here I am in the 18 jeans and 18/20 shirt.

I walked out of the dressing room and now two woman are telling me the shirt is too big and tell me to try on the 14/16 All I see is my big fat belly, so now they give me a pair of spanks and send me back in. This time I try on the purple shirt.

Yeah it looks better but I still see my big fat belly. I need to do more crunches, reverse crunches and bicycle crunches. I might have to try that Jillian Michaels 6 week 6 pack again. It was so hard for me I couldn't do most of the moves, so I will add it to the 30 shred and do what I can.

I started talking with the sales lady about how long she's worked there and I said I've been shopping here for almost 20 years. She said she didn't remember seeing me before. Then since I was THE QUEEN OF THE NILE over what size shirt, she asked me about my diet. I really need to start carrying a before picture with me, so I took out my drivers license to show her. 

She looked at the picture then looked up at me and said "I know the woman in that photo but I don't know you" WOW!! And that pretty much is how I feel. I don't know this new kick ass me who's working out and has fitness goals BUT I LIKE HER!!!   

Next I try on the red shirt because I wasn't sure which color I liked
SOLD! love the red one. Even my smile was bigger. There was one last shirt I like so I tried that on too. Still a little tight but I took it. I like having GOAL CLOTHES it makes me work harder. 


Speaking of "goal clothes" this is the Quest For The Dress. I'm aiming for this to be my 'mid summer's night dream' goal dress :-) I would love to wear it when I go away mid July.

One last thing I tried on tonight.. which was really the first thing I tried on, when I went to Costco to pick up a photo card order I designed for Twiggy.

Eli who works in the photo center was busy helping a crazy lady so I waited for him to be finish and checked out the jewelry. I love love LOVE this ring, the shape of the stone, the color of the stone, which is for November which is a very special month to me and I like the diamonds around it and on the band.
The ring ALMOST fit my finger, so I asked what size it was...a SEVEN!  My Wedding band is a 9 1/2. I stopped wearing it when I started calling him The Roommate so I had no idea my rings wouldn't fit me either. I think the only ring I have in a 7 is my high school class ring.

I guess when I said the only thing that fits me is my shoes, I wasn't lying, and that's because Jenn and I just bought shoes 2 weeks ago.

I can't wait to work out tomorrow morning... OMG did I just type that?? I can't wait to WORK OUT???!!!! 

See you tomorrow after the Art Show.
Thanks for reading My Big Fat @$$

Day 45 - work out done already

Slept late, got up, fed Alex, woke Tony, fed him, threw dinner in the crock pot, Tony dressed, got him on the bus and it was ME TIME!!!!! I love this new, take no bullshit from anyone, me who works out. She awesome! Where the hell has she been all my life???? I must have been drowning her out by shoving M&Ms and chips down my mouth.

I did my 30 day shred, well I get it's 45 day shred for me...lol Before

Sweating like a pig


Took a shower, text a few friends and here I am blogging before 3pm in the afternoon with my cutie on my lap.

Too bad the weather sucks or I would call Twiggy to met us for a walk/run around the blog. So I guess I will scrap, I have to design BBQ invitations. Enjoy the rest of your Monday, see you back here tomorrow!
Thanks for reading My Big Fat @$$