Day 38 - getting back into the swing of things

Trying to get back into some kind of normal routine this week. The kids both go up early so I got them fed and dressed, which meant I could get in an early work out!

I took my before picture with Alexander today, because he will be the first person in my life who will not remember me fat!! That is an awesome feeling. Alexander is going to have an AWESOME MOM! One who doesn't dread getting into a bath suit, or shorts. One who will jump on a plane to visit Cousin Chris or Cousin Vinnie and not worry that the seat belt won't fit.



Anthony may or may not remember what I looked like. I hope over time, the memories of fat mommy fade for him. He's a great support. He came into the living room while I was working out and said "You're doing great Mom" That little guy has no idea how those words just melt my heart. I don't know when I'll be fit enough to start jogging but I am really looking forward to it. My little ADHD guy is going to come with me! Maybe running around the track will help him with all his energy and it will pave the way for him to be a fit adult. I know I'm already doing well teaching him healthy eating habits.
Here I am done with my work out. Take notice of Anthony playing with his trains in the hall way. He stayed out of my way and played there so I could do my work out.


I am really pushing to be able to do more. I was able to get into plank position and do 3 push ups like that. The rest I had to do on my knees. I'm going to keep trying to do them every day, until I can handle 5. I'll keep working on them until I can stay in plank position and do them all like that.

I got a bunch of things done this morning including some laundry. On my way upstairs I notice something that the roommate  did! He took a few things out of recycling and hid them in the basement. This is one of the MANY REASONS I hate him! I'm so sick of him taking things out of the garbage or recycling and hiding it. I don't understand his attachment to things and not people. I will NEVER understand it. And if he doesn't stop and get help he is going to lose his kids not just me!

Hoarding is an illness, just like over eating! Nobody can help him unless he wants to help himself. I want to change, I want to live and do things with my kids. He rather have stuff and lose his whole family over it.

Things are at the point with him, that when I'm doing the punches in the Jillian Michael 30 day shred, I am picturing his face or I turn around and face our wedding picture on the wall and do my punches looking at that. He is NOT the man I married. He is NOT the man who made me fall in love with him. He did a great job of hiding the real him until after my last name was changed.

I am changing my life and I'm not taking that hoarding monkey's ass with me! The chapters with him in it every day will soon be over. The me I always wanted to be is coming out and I'm going to be the best me ever, without him!

See you tomorrow when I'm sweating like a pig again. I'm hoping I can do some scrap designing tonight.
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Day 12 is here!

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Twelve days in a row I have worked out. It's a wonderful feeling to have this new me showing up every day. Today I'm tired because I stayed up late working on my April Template Challenge for NDISB.com and going over the ideas for the ADSR7 which I'm all excited about. This is my all time favorite competition to scrap in.

My evil scale is back to it's old tricks, but it's up because I had a snack last night. I was so hungry since I was up so late. I had a fiber on bar around 2:30am so hopefully tomorrow it will be back where it was yesterday. Or I am going to take the scale and throw it out the window into the backyard for pissing me off! - see don't mess with me in the mornings when I'm tired and haven't had my coffee!! ((I can hear someone teasing me for how I say coffee! I'm a Jersey Girl Dammit!))

so here's super tired me blogging right now


I'm going to finish my coffee and work out because my little boy's Christening is in 82 days! My Challenge is over a few days before and then I'll start a NEW CHALLENGE because I'm lovin this new go get them attitude.

I keep thinking about when Cheryl posted she was running during her lunch hour. HOLY MOLY!! I want to run.. but if I do that now I'll have boobs flying and hitting me in the face...lol But that is one of my goals.Cheryl when I'm ready to train I'll let you know.

How awesome would it be? Maybe I could run from my house to the doctor's office for a weekly weight in. Wait......... how far is that?..........map quest here I come...........6 miles............. I wonder how long I would have to train to do that? I will find out one day when I don't have a big fat @$$.

Time to move my big fat @$$ and wait for another pair of jeans to fall off!


after - sweating like a ---- what? you should know by now if you are reading my blog.


Every time Jillian Micheals says "it should be burning" I think SUNBURN, then I think SUMMER, then I think about the next CONVENTION I'm planning to go to and I push harder to work out.

This afternoon I'm heading to AAA with my mom. She needs to pick up her Euros and I'm going to check on flights for my trip in July. I hate to fly but at least I know I'll fit in the seat!

Day 13... you're only a day a way!!!

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