Day 17 - Cheryl is crazy!

I've mentioned Cheryl several times in my blog because she's the only one I know who lost a lot of weight without having a gastric bypass or lap band. There is nothing wrong with taking that path, but I knew it wasn't for me.

Two acquaintances I know had the surgery. One of them would go to Mc Donald's drive thru and get his normal 3 or 4 cheeseburgers eat them, then be so sick he would have to pull over and get sick. I saw him about a year after his surgery and he looked GREAT, I saw him 2 years ago and was shocked that he was bigger than what he was before he had the surgery! Guess those Mc Donald's got to him!

The other had the surgery I think within the last year.. because I don't really know this one very well. And every time I hear about her, she's sick OR I'm hearing where she went to dinner. WTF? really? This is how you treat your body after his surgery? Then I heard she said she's been having problems since the surgery... OF COURSE SHE IS!! Put down the donut and get your @$$ and work out!!!!

There are several more people I know who had it done. They continue to watch what they eat. I guess the point is it's all about changing your life!

When I read what you have to do BEFORE the surgery and how you have to maintain your life AFTER the surgery, I wondered to myself, if I did all that and followed the diet and worked out every day, why did I need the surgery???

I guess the answer is what works for you. The Center for Medical Weight Loss is not for everyone. Most people are surprised by the price. Others don't want to be on a liquid diet. You have to find what food plan works for you. THIS WORKS FOR ME!!

I will stick with this plan and work on learning how to eat the correct foods that give my body fluid and not just eat to eat. I will learn that I CAN have chocolate cake in moderation. And exercise needs to be a part of daily life!

Now back to Cheryl....that CRAZY B!T(H IS DOING THIS:

If that doesn't work for you view it here

Now she's planted the seed in my head and I must kill her! All I wanted to do was be able to run and the two of us go run in Philly and up the stairs of the museum like in Rocky.. but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO She wants to push my fat @$$ to do this crazy thing!!

It does have me thinking, so we'll see. Last year I started out doing Richard Simmons and this year I'm working out to that evil woman Jillian Micheals almost every day.. but not today!! I'm doing Debbie Sieber's Slim in 6 today.

So here I am.. game face on. I got a late start because I was visiting my friend Denise but if you thought I would miss a day YOU ARE CRAZY!


Here's my #1 fan


Done with my workout and I'm WHAT? - Sweating like a pig! How come those people on the videos don't look like pigs???


I wanted to do level 2 of Debbie Sieber's Slim in 6 but I couldn't find my resistance bands, so I did level one holding my weights the whole time. Hopefully I can locate them tonight and do level 2 tomorrow.

Time to do something fun, like fold laundry. If I'm lucky I'll do some scrapping, our big Amazing Digital Scrap Race at ndisb.com is coming up...which still sounds a whole lot better than Cheryl's spartan race

If you're following me, I hope you start to make your own plans and get up off your fat @$$ and work out

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Day 14 - lagging today

That Jillian Michaels is KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!! I did 11 or 12 of those kick ass surrenders yesterday and I've had enough. I even tried to film it but the video cuts me off from the waist down, so what's the point? you can't see the whole move. I'll try again next week.

Today I need a break from that evil evil woman. So I'm doing Debbie Siebers's Slim in 6 I know I have to push myself, but I also don't want to get hurt or keep using the same muscles.

I have to get into that size 18 in 79 days. My 90 challenges ends on June 7, Alexander's Christening is on June 10. On June 9 me and my cousins are going to have family photos taken and I need a pair of jeans for that!! And we all know my jeans don't fit ...does a happy dance!

I keep thinking about my "boyfriend" saying how great I look in that dress. Well he said "Your boobs will look fantastic"  Yes, I have a boyfriend.. don't you? In fact I have several!
I have one that makes me feel like this - all you ladies get that right?

One that would help me hide the body if necessary....lol. One that has been MIA for so long he should be striped of the title "boyfriend" And no none of them are gay.. although I did have a gay boyfriend way back when, but that's another story.

Okay enough blogging, time for my big fat @$$ to get up and work out before the BRAT comes home from school or the baby's heart alarm goes off. Here I am all ready to go, so lets get started...


My view of Alexander while doing crunches


And here I am done with my work out, sweating like a???


Tonight a friend is coming over for dinner and to meet Alexander for the first time. I will STICK to my diet! My weigh in is tomorrow at 1pm and I don't want to throw anything off.

If that scale goes down I'm treating myself to a pedicure tomorrow night. Look how sad my toes are :( I need a summer color, I am tired of looking at this red. BUT ONLY if the scale goes down. If not then I am looking at this sorry @$$ color for another week.



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Day 7 - Why am I doing this?

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I must be crazy, this is torture! All my muscles are burning. My thighs hurt going up and down my stairs and I keep asking myself why am I doing this??

answers:
1. so I don't die from a heart attack or other obesity related disease
2. so I won't be insulin resistance any more
3. to teach my boys you can do anything with hard work
4. I don't want to stop my boys from doing things just because I am too fat to do it too.
5. because I don't want a gastric bypass.


bonus answers:
1. to walk into a room and not say to myself "you're the fattest one here"
2. to stop buying clothes in plus size stores. I don't even know what sizes are out of a plus size store.
3. to own a little black dress
4. I want to run a marathon
5. and come on, the sex just has to be even better if I can be flipped around or upside down! Like this one looks like fun, and if I can get into that bridge position then these works outs are really working!

My stupid stupid scale totally hates me this week it's still saying I am up 2lbs. I am going to cry when I get to my weigh in on Friday.

I am still pushing myself. In the past I would have stopped dieting because the scale didn't move. But I noticed my stomach seems to be in more on the sides and I didn't get sick looking at a picture of me from behind! So something is working.

I was planning on doing Jillian Michaels again today and push myself to do more of those killer Surrender Exercise but the throbbing in my thighs hasn't
stopped since I did them yesterday. When I was laying in bed last night my quadriceps were on fire. Good thing I went to massage school, I kept rubbing them until they didn't hurt anymore.  So I'll be skipping Ms. Michaels and doing Debbie Sieber today.

I'll be back to continue blogging after my kid is on the bus and I do my work out. (11am)
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(back 3pm)

There is something wrong with me!! at the very last minute I switched DVDs from nice sweet Debbie Siebers who shows you other ways to do something if you cant or lets you march in place when it's to much to that mean b!t(h who yells at you Jillian Michaels!

I pushed myself and when she got to the surrenders I kept saying "come on 7!" and started giggling and thinking of this scene from Friends.


I did it, another day, sweating like a pig.. do pigs even sweat?


Not only did I make it to my goal minutes this week, I surpassed it! But I'm still going to kick and scream and CRY at my weigh in tomorrow at 1pm MY SCALE IS UP BY 2LBS!!!!

And to all my SKINNY friends who are checking on me, GET YOUR BUTTS UP AND MOVE!! if my fat ass has worked out 210 minutes this week, YOU CAN WORK OUT 10 MINUTES TODAY!!!!!!!!!!

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Day 5 - is that really me?

I saw friends over the weekend and we were looking at a wedding picture from their wedding. I asked her to email me pictures from her wedding because I had to look at myself again. I am at my heaviest weight here, not counting when I was pregnant with the boys, add 30lbs.

I see a big difference! I really need to get the "saboteur" out of my head because you can too see I lost weight!! She's just BLIND!!

Me Sept 5 2005

me in the dressing room on Saturday March 10, 2012


You can really see the difference in my face. left is from 2009 6 months before I started my diet. The right is from March 2012 and as I was taking the picture I was thinking "Oh My God I'm pregnant"


Today I'm going to work out to Debbie Siebers's Slim in 6! I'm even working out earlier than normal. go me!!!

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4th day of working out

I was so tired this morning. The baby was so fussy. I didn't get a good night's sleep with the fuss pot, the 2am feeding and the 7am feeding.. and the wondering man I am currently married to had the nerve to tell me he was tired after going to bed at 10pm! I will give him tired, come here let me kick you in the face.. wait I can't get my leg up that high yet! Dammit..I will work on that.

I got on the scale and the number went down.. so I put my game face on

and did Debbie Siebers's Slim in 6® start it up. There was no way I could do Jillian Michael's another day.

In the afternoon I went over to visit with my aunt and cousins. My uncle had open heart surgery today.... it runs in the family so I need to get this weight OFF now. I don't want to die in my 60's like my grandfather.

I felt really good when I got dressed, I'm feeling strong and determined. I snapped this photo of myself in the van on the drive over to my aunts.

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I did it!

I did the 24 minutes of the "start it up" section of Debbie Sieber's Slim in 6 I really like that there is a countdown clock for the whole work out and each area we are working on also has it's own clock. That really helped to keep me going.

After 10 minute I wanted to stop but just pushed myself. I even put my camera on its timer to get a few pictures. I just looked at the pictures and HATE how I look. But isn't that the point? I hate how I look so I am doing something about it. I decided to post one of the pictures to keep myself motivated.

I need to keep going. I don't want to miss out on fun stuff with my boys because mommy is too fat. I want to ride a bike with my boys, take them to a water park and take a trip on a plane without worrying if I will fit in the seat.

Losing weight also means cuter clothes, maybe getting checked out once in while and better sex *grin*!!!

so here's to me on my first work out day and sticking to my diet. Now I need a shower!

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Today I feel beat down...

We all have those days...those emotional draining days. That's when I usually eat, eat and eat...but today I didn't!

Today started out okay enough... my husband woke me up early and even thou I didn't want to get out of bed and even laid back down for a while, I picked myself up and did Ramp It Up section of Slim in 6® . I knew I had to get it done before the meeting I had about my son at 11:30.

This workout is hard. I do my best and keep up. I thought the first half was bad but now that I'm doing the whole 47 minutes the 2nd half with the resistance bands makes me sweat more. I swear to you I am seeing a difference in my body already. My sides and waste are feeling smaller, my arms are feeling stronger. And the best is, today when I got dressed, I looked down and didn't see my stomach sticking out past my boobs.

I'm really glad I got that work out in, because after the meeting I was too drained to do anything more than run a few errands. I even napped with my son this afternoon.

Tomorrow is my weekly weigh in. I'm hoping for big numbers, no whammies. I am very excited to tell Dr. Ransom that I did 3 hours of exercise this week. I am hoping to see my muscle mass up!!

I'll keep you posted... well I mean I'll write my skinny self a another entry tomorrow.

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There's a thin girl inside me trying to get out!

And she's taken control!! I worked out again today. One more workout and I will have actually made the 3 hour mark that Dr. Ransom wants me to make every week. The most I've done in a week is just about 2 hours. I know I can do it.

We had things to do this morning and while out my son fell asleep before we got home. I carried him up the stairs...all 40lbs of him.. it was hard..I kept thinking I used to carry that much weight on my body. My scale has me down 40lb but the doctor's scale is 5lbs difference. Anyway, I knew it was a perfect time to go work out. I put him in bed and did the Ramp It Up section of Slim in 6®

My shoulders are killing me. The resistance band part is amazing and hard. I am feeling the burn as they say so I know I'm doing it right. As I'm sweating and it's burning, I keep thinking "I want to wear shorts this summer". Plus we have a wedding to go to in June that my son is the ring bearer. I want to look good and wear a dress. I can do it!!!

I am really looking forward to my weigh in this week. With all the exercising I'm doing I am hoping to see my muscle mass go up. My personal scale hasn't moved at all. It sometimes happens when I'm getting close to that time of the month or it could be because I'm burning fat and building muscle.

That's it from me.
Tomorrow is another day.

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I did it!!

My whole body is shaking and I have jello legs again but I did it, I finished the Ramp It Up section of Slim in 6®. The last few minutes of stretching all I could think of was "I need a shower" so I stopped the DVD and jumped in the shower.

I really can feel this work out working. Yesterday I really felt like my waist was smaller so I had my husband do my measurements. Sure enough 2.5 inches off my waste, 3 off my hips, 2.5 off my thighs and 2 off my arms. I'm amazed! That side oblique crunch she has you do is a killer. I showed my THIN husband the move last night, he did one and said "that's hard". Debbie Siebers says in the DVD "if you do this every day your waste will get thinner"...SHE'S RIGHT!!

This is only my 3rd week doing her DVD. I hardly worked out in December and gained back 2lbs...which to me was great considering all the eating I did all month long. So anyway I know darn well that the inches I got off didn't happen between Thanksgiving and New Years..They happened after New Years when I started giving 100% again.

I am really feeling good and I feel thin.. by no means am I THIN!! I am still in that "Morbid Obesity" category. But working out every day, sticking to my diet plan as dropped my BMI almost 10 points. Just a little more work and I move out of Mordid Obesity into Obesity yippie...lol what a funny thing to be cheering for, but it's the little steps that are keeping me going!!

I watched Heavy on A&E last night. Anyone see it? Wait, I'm still talking to myself.. nobody is reading my blog, so of course nobody saw it, nobody is here! Well it was inspiring. Hard work, diet and exercise does work...no need to jump on that gastric bypass band wagon. I've had several friends who went that route and some of them have gained the weight back!! What did they learn? Did they work out? nope!! so none of their habits changed and they still are eating unhealthy foods.

I have one friend Cheryl who fought with her weight and with hard work and exercise she's at a healthy weight! You can read her success story here.

Well my son is jumping all around asking for an apple, guess my blogging is over! I hope it's nap time soon, we've been up since 5:30.

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Happy Monday

It always makes me feel good when I wake up and the number on the scale has gone down. I know experts will tell you to only weigh yourself once a week.. well I have my official weigh ins on Fridays.. but it helps me stay in check to look at that number every day!!!

I did my work out already for the day. Yippee.. but man are my legs killing me. I am currently working out to Slim in 6®. This is my third week using the program. I did great the first week on Start It Up section. Last week I did 2 days of Start It Up and then did one day on Ramp It Up.

Ramp It Up is kicking my big fat ass!! I've only been able to get through half of that section. When she gets to the part where you need your training bands my legs are like jello so I haven't done the 2nd half YET!! I did find my training bands thank goodness, so I'm all set when I'm not shaking like jello legs...Jello legs makes me think of "spaghetti arms" :-)

Yesterday it really felt like my waste might have gotten smaller. I haven't done measurements since November. Maybe it's time to do them again. I just checked, the last time I did measurements was right before Halloween. It's totally time to measure my big fat ass!!

Now in case you're following my blog.. HA HA I know I'm talking to myself.. you'll notice a bunch of changes. First I renamed the blog address. Calling it my big fat ass blog and not using that as the address seemed silly. Next I made a fat ass cartoon and made the header and changed the blog colors.. nice huh? Well I think so. It makes me smile.

It's taken me almost an hour to write this post because I keep getting up to check on my son. He just asked for a snack of APPLE!! I am so happy, I'm doing something right. What a healthy snack. I cut up the apple for him and gave him 4 baby spoons with soy peanut butter on it.

I'm so happy that's what he asks for. I don't want him to have a weight problem. I know if I teach him healthy eating habits now, he will continue with them as an adult. He's even been doing some of the exercises with me!

Healthy eating wasn't even talked about in my house growing up. My mother had the junk food lined up on the counter. I could grab a pop tart any time I wanted and there was no mentoring how many of those double packages I ate!! Then when we visited my father the drive threw was our best friend. Eating Burger King in the back seat of his car was our normal dinner when we visited him.

Now it's time for me to go play SAHM and fold all the laundry, finish the shopping list and play with my son.

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Sunday Morning Workout

Well I just finished a mini work out.. and I mean a mini one, only 15 minutes. I haven't worked out in four days and it's always hard to get a half hour or more in if it's been this long. No wonder I could hardly do anything when I first started, I had no stamina.

Tomorrow's work out should be better and longer. I am really enjoying Debbie Siebers's Slim in 6®. If you are looking for a work out video try one of hers.

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have fun???

If I thought exercise was fun I would have never gotten up to the morbidly obese category with a BMI of 54!!! I am a heart attack waiting to happen. But some how I picked myself up and went to the doctor for help. I'm so glad I'm not doing this alone anymore and I have real help.

Anyway since I was up super early I decided to get my work out in first. I'm currently working out to >Debbie Siebers's Slim in 6® which I bought about 6 years ago where it had remained in the box until just recently. Apparently I did open it because the training bands are missing... rats.. now I have to go looking for them...oh boy just rambling on here.. the point is, Debbie says "just have fun with it" REALLY? really you beautiful THIN woman? have fun? the big fat moo cow over here can hardly get her leg up to do your side kicks and you think I'm having fun?

UGHHH it's so hard... BUT I have come along way since last June. I could hardly keep up with >Richard Simmons! Then I tried >Jillian Michaels OMG she's so far beyond what I can handle. I don't know how those Biggest Loser people keep up with her.. and I'm about the same size of them.

I'm very happy doing the Slim in 6® and what I like the best is that there is a time counter in the corner so you know how long you have to do that part and how much more of the workout you have to go. But I'm still not having FUN!!! I'll let you know if FUN is ever a word I use to describe a work out!

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