Day 57 - Weekends SUCK around here

While most families do SOMETHING on the weekends I can't remember the last time we did anything special at all. I call him the damn roommate for a reason! He doesn't even think about his kids and it just makes me moody.. no it makes me moodier!!

It really turns my stomach and then I cry that I read my friends have gone to the movies, out to dinner, at dairy queen, on a date night with their husband.. no not here, not EVER!  Last time the roommate and I went to a movie was when I BEGGED him to go see Back to the Future when they re-released it. That was a year and half ago.

Luckily Anthony had a great day with Nonna. He slept over with her last night. It was the first time he slept with her, well unless you want to count the one night she took him when he was 2 months old so I could sleep the night. He even went with her to Costco and Pet Co and had a lot of fun!

He came upstairs when she went to church and he's been watching movies since. I'm glad he had a great day. Tomorrow I plan on doing some errands including going to Home Depot.

Tonight I have to stay up late tonight because The Amazing Digi Scrap Race starts in just 4 hours!! And it's the Lemon Police's birthday tomorrow. I have to wish him Happy Birthday at midnight, even if he's asleep.

I did my work out and I'm DYING! My arms are so sore, my body really hurts. I hurt so much that I had to go lay down for an hour. I didn't get a good nap, because Alexander was crying and for whatever reason that kid just doesn't like the roommate either.

Before




Sweating like a pig




I'm going to head on over to NDISB.com now and see what's going on. I have to make sure I have my list of teams to check and do some last minute things including posting my detour challenge. As a matter of fact I'm heading over to NDISB.com right now.

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What happened to Day 56?

No I didn't invent time travel in a DeLorean and skip over yesterday to arrive to today. I just got involved with other things and never stopped to work out. I even forgot to come here and post about my weight in. It wasn't until I woke up this morning (yawn I need a nap) that I remembered I'm a really big slacker!

It was a really shitty week for me! Emotionally I was all over the place, ask the Lemon Police he'll tell you I was a NUT JOB this week. Heck I even had another break down yesterday afternoon that he doesn't know about (well now he will) and another one late last night.

My face broke out this week, my back hurt, I was achy, tired, bloated.. full blown period week but without the period! First time since my hysterectomy that I got all the symptoms. I even had PMS this before hand which was another major melt down on my poor Lemon Police that I love so much! I would have locked my ass up I was flipping out so bad.

Prior to this month I had a few mood swings and one week a month I wouldn't have any change in my weight, so we were guessing that's what was going on. But this week totally shocked me and took me by surprise. Heck I'm still haven't a little melt down, but I'm not sure if that's jealously or my mood. So I was totally fine when the doctors office called to tell me Dr. Ransom wouldn't be in this Friday and they needed to change my appointment. I was just going there yesterday to pick up food.

Dr. Ransom gave them the okay to weigh me in anyway. I wasn't expecting that scale to move AT ALL!! hell no, not with the Major Melt Down Bitch that I have been....wow was I shocked to see that scale had moved down another 2.5lbs  I felt undeserving because I didn't work as hard as I normally do and hell I needed a damn smack on my ass for all the crying I was doing too!

I came home moved my ticker down and changed the goal to 20lbs and that's all I did with my blog. I was too excited about the new things that came in the mail.

First my little man Alexander got his first Star Wars onesie for Star Wars Day yesterday.


I knew we had to redo our Star Wars pictures when Anthony came home from school, when all of the sudden it hit me, I was wearing the wrong shirt!! Here I am with the Darth Vader shirt I started the day out wearing.



I ran in my room and pulled open that bottom drawer of t-shirts



and there it was...My episode I The Phantom Menace t-shirt that I bought and wore on opening night. I stood on line for the midnight show knowing that hundreds of miles away the person I would have given anything to be going to see this movie with was also on line waiting to see it, according to his email.

I heard myself gulp as I removed my Darth Vader shirt and put my arms in my Phantom Menace shirt...please let it fit, please let it fit.... I think my smile says it all!!



I opened the rest of the bags that came and tried things on...what do you think? these are for the summer and I really seem to push myself when I have to get into something, so by mid summer when I run away I think these will look fine. the purple one I would wear on a long drive to be comfy or maybe a cover up when I go swimming but the black one I really like to go out in.






When Anthony came home we did another Star Wars photo shoot



The rest of the day I worked on stuff for the ADSR which starts tomorrow. I stayed up late to give the Lemon Police his digi birthday present for his FB page, had another melt down around 1am and was fast asleep moments after my head hit the pillow.


And with all that I did NOT workout yesterday.. SLACKER!!

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Day 19 - You did great Mommy

My girlfriend Jenn called me this morning. Hi JENN!!! I had a great time talking to her, and then I realized the boys were still sleeping so I gotta jump on getting my workout in. Go me!!!
About 15 minutes into Anthony got up and was standing at the door watching me. He told me I was doing really good, but then said "Mommy your belly is still fat." Well he told me!!

I told him that's why I'm working out, so my belly isn't fat anymore. He watched me finish my work out and cheered me on, but I think he only cared about me getting done so he could watch Max and Ruby...lol

Here I am sweating like a pig after, but I am feeling GREAT!!!!

One of the things I look forward to every day is wearing a new t-shirt. Well, they aren't new, they have been living in the bottom of my dresser for years. They are all different sizes ranging from XL to 2XL. I have looked at them for years wondering if I'll ever be able to wear them again.



Here's the shirt I wore yesterday
I remember when I bought that shirt, I think I wore it once because it was too tight.


My t-shirt goal is to wear this one! I've been saving it since 1985 because most of my life I wished I had a time machine, because I know right who I would go back to get. My FUTURE is looking great these days, doesn't look like I needed that time machine to get to where I wanted to be after all... but I still would like to wear this t-shirt again! I am happy to say I can GET IT ON!!! Which is a really big deal because the last time I TRIED to put it on, I couldn't at all!!!

Time for me to do a little scrapping. Thanks for reading My Big Fat @$$