Day 89 - the new day 4 ....

Someone needs to remind me I am calmer, I think more clearly, I'm less emotional therefore less melt downs...WHEN I WORK OUT!!!!  Did you got that "someone"?!?
If I miss two days of working out you better make sure there isn't a 3rd day, unless I'm in bed with the flu!


While I was working out...and since I always put Jillian Michaels on mute... I get a lot of thoughts... today in my rambling brain, I wondered a few things but these are the highlights:
Why anyone would listen to me when I said "You MUST join Facebook" and
"When would I have to start my last 90 Challenge to make it end on June 1, 2013 when I do the Spartan Race?"

I pushed myself through the No More Trouble Zones by telling myself "You want to climb the rope" and started making a list of things I want to improve in my work outs or increase. I am no longer counting the number on the scale as my goals. I am counting what I am able to do as my goals and my increases stamina.


Today I did 2 sets of 32 jumping jacks, one set of burpees although I didn't count them I was just focused on doing them. I did 8 push ups in plank position and I have been working on doing some of the exercises on this DVD that I used to say "OMG I CAN'T DO THAT" even the stretches she does at the end seemed unreachable to me.

I do have to stop once in a while and I can't do as many as reps as the girls in the DVD but believe me I am working on it. There was a point just 5 months ago I didn't do any jumping jacks! I just marched in place and slowly pushed myself to do 10. I'll be up to 40 soon and these other things I can't handle I'll get there!!!

 When I sat down to feed Alexander I went to timeanddate.com to figure out my question about when my 90 days would have to start to end on June 1. Here's the break down
March 3, 2013 to June 1, 2013 - 90 days
Dec 2, 2012 to March 2, 2013 - 90 days
Sept 2, 2012 to Dec 1, 2012 - 90 days
which makes my next 90 challenge only 85 days from Friday June 8 to Sept 1.... but if I wanted it to be the full 90 it would have started on June 3... which is the day I signed up for the Sparta Race!!! So I decided my this 90 day challenge  is going to overlap a few days with my next one. I love the thought of my sign up being the start of my new "push yourself until you can have lick-able abs next year" challenge. I know just who's gonna lick them too.


When Anthony came home from school it was errand time!- Its my daily blah blah blah

First to Dee's Florist to order Boutonnieres and Wristlets
To the dry cleaners to pick up Anthony's Christening outfit which Alexander will be wearing
Next stop Mommy gets her favorite

To the dollar store where I thought I wasn't getting anything then I found nail polish I might try and frames for all the pictures of the boys we are giving to our Aunts


I ordered Chinese Food and then went to Kohl's in search of black shirts for the boys to wear for our Perosi Family pictures on Saturday. We came out and were thrilled to see a beautiful double rainbow


I had to hunt someone down to take our picture - and umm the leg on my jeans looks baggy!! Can that be?? I just bought them on April 17th.



Off to A&P for milk


Finally home, fed Anthony and gave Alexander a bottle, cleaned up the dinning room.. well the table is cleared off there are still crates of baby clothes that have to go back in the basement. Anthony had a bath, watched a moving, I continued to try and clean up while the roommate was busy doing something on his computer. And here I am finally blogging!

I forgot to post these photos yesterday. A few of the sundresses I ordered came in.




See that damn sock in the picture? it's the roommates, he dropped it and didn't pick it up. I'm going to have to pick it up, I'm sick of looking at it.

Well I guess I'm done with my blah blah blah. I have really been feeling great the last 3 days! Working out does wonder.

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Day 40 - WOW

I'm on  day 40? really? I need to check out many days I've worked out during that 40.. hang on.....


35 out of the 40 days of my 90 day challenge I have worked out! GO ME!!!!
3 days off for being sick, 1 holiday off, 1 grieving day off

Even though I scream at that evil bitch Jillian Michaels on the 30 shred DVD when she says "those of you on day 5, 6 and 7 can feel a difference in your endurance" She's right. I am feeling it and seeing it.  Even the jumping jacks I had a hard time with when I started. I still can't keep up with her and sometimes stop during the 2nd cardio jumping jacks, but I'm keeping up with the first set in the warm up and the last set in the 3rd cardio part. I couldn't do that 40 days ago. But I still think she's EVIL!!

I get so mad when she stops her work out to go by the girls to show us what to do. There should be a video for people who don't know how to do her work out and then one with her doing it with us the whole time. I want to kick her little ass when she stops.


Before



I really pushed myself tonight - Sweating like a pig



Every night I'm trying a little more, first I worked on being able to do more jumping jacks. Now I'm working on getting into plank position to do push ups. HOLY SHIT THEY ARE KILLERS!!!!!!! They are worse than the surrenders I've been able to do 3. I continue to push myself and I look forward to the day I can do push ups without feeling like I'm going to die.

That's enough from me, I have to get back to doing a little scrapping for ADSR and maybe get to bed before 2am. See you tomorrow!!!
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Day 28 - GOAL MET - TICKER RESET!!!

Every Friday I get so nervous about what that stupid scale is going to say. Today Jenn asked ask a simple question...why do I get nervous? I realized my self worth is tied into that number on the scale. It's going to take more therapy to fix that!!

Turns out the scale loved me this week. Even with being sick I lost 2.5lbs and reached my first goal for the year 2 months before I thought I would! I am now at the same weight I was when the doctor confirmed I was pregnant with Alexander. As it turns out, that was a year ago TODAY! April 6th. I knew I was pregnant for two weeks but it was too soon to take a home test. I couldn't wait anymore, went to the doc, got a blood test and ...well now we have Alex!

I changed my ticker to show I reached my goal and put up a new one with a new goal of another 10lbs. I decided I will work with shorter goals from here on out. Telling myself I am going to lose 10lbs is much easier for me.

Anthony had no school today and with him underfoot working out is harder. By the time I got myself ready and started my Boyfriend (the one that will hide the body) texted me and told me to be ready in 30 minutes for our date!!!

I took my before picture but there is no after picture because I went to the movies! And I don't feel bad one little bit! I haven't been to a movie since Toy Story 3!





Tomorrow is another day. When I get up the FIRST THING I will do is work out!

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Day 27 - work out 3 - still smiling

Today was the last day in my week. Tomorrow is my weigh in. Considering I was sick for 3 days I did pretty well almost reaching my work out goal.

I had another nice day, more birthday wishes and lots of smiles. I have a SMALL birthday cake in refrigerator that I will save for dessert on Sunday - Cheryl RELAX I will have a small piece.

Anthony had a half day at school, then we went to Target and did some shopping. By the time we got hope it was  6:30pm, Anthony went outside to play, I fed Alex, roommate came home..normal chaos

I didn't get my work out done until 10pm!! Before Cheryl freaks...lol here is a picture of the most important thing that happened yesterday... my new sneaks

onto my Jillian Michaels kick @$$ work out. Here is me before


Sweating like a pig after... I couldn't even get up!


Wish me luck for my weigh in tomorrow!!! Hopefully my big fat @$$ is less fat! I'll let you know
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Day 26 - work out 2 - HAPPY Birthday to ME!!!

I have a LOT to say.. so grab your cup of coffee, or water or whatever you drink and read my blog!!

I've said a few times how much I HATE my birthday, I didn't expect anything else for today so I was very surprised that it didn't suck! I was almost correct when I said last night that my "Boyfriend who makes me smile" would be the first one to wish me a Happy Birthday. Jenn's text message beat his in by seconds!!

Alex and I went to bed late and that stupid monitor went off a few times which means I didn't get a good night's sleep. I jumped up out of bed at 6am thinking it was much later. Took me a minute to realize it wasn't 9am :-) Went back to sleep jumped up again at 8:30 and saw that my -roommate- aka current husband was still in bed. I woke him up thinking he was late for work and that's when I found out he took the day off to surprise me and take me and the boys to Calandra's. If you have been reading my blog you know I FREAKED when the  saboteur wanted to take me there last week. Read  Day 21 - Help! The bread is trying to get me

I was SO UPSET!!! This is why the roommate and I have been having problems for so many years. He NEVER listens to me. Some might say "well he's trying" TRYING?????????? I am losing weight.. not TRYING to lose weight. And if he ever bothered to read my blog when I started it, or asked me each week how I was doing on the diet, he would know the LAST THING I wanted to do was go out to lunch or dinner, unless there was JUST A SALAD involved.

My cousin is making me dinner on Saturday night, which I'm planning on eating then. On Sunday we have Easter. I'm cooking so I know I can control what I put in my mouth. I didn't want to add any more calorie intake that I had to this week. I have a GOAL to get to!!!!! THAT IS WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO ME.

I couldn't even deal with the emotions I was feeling. I actually felt SET UP TO FAIL. I sent Cheryl a text and a few other people. I was so pissed I gave myself a headache. When Alexander started crying I told the roommate to feed him and I went back to bed.

That little nap I had made me feel better so I was able to reclaim the day for ME!!!  I decided if he was taking the day off he could do things that he's been lazy about like put the Christmas tree in the basement and take care of the boys while I go for a pedicure.  I thought Twiggy might come with me, but she went to her brothers. As I was about to walk out the door, the saboteur said she was going tomorrow and asked to come with me. Off we went.

I treated myself to a spa pedicure. I was in heaven! I had my favorite coffee, resting in the massage chair, listening to music and having my legs rubbed. I even treated myself to a manicure, which I never get since I usually do my nails myself. (used to work in a salon as a nail tech if you don't know.)



I felt GREAT, happy and relaxed. I had a smile on my face when I walked in the door. And I remembered I have a Birthday t-shirt! So I went looking in that bottom draw for it, put it on and this is what I saw.



NEVERMIND!!!! That shirt is WAY to big, I'll stick with this one.



Now the plan was the boys would have dinner and we would all go to Target... UNTIL Anthony started acting like demon boy from hell! No way I was I letting him ruin how great I was feeling and now add that my birthday shirt looks like a tent on me, I wanted to get out of the house fast.

I was just going to head to the mall alone but decided to pick up the phone and call Jenn to see if she could meet me at Rockaway. She was planning on visiting me tomorrow so I took a change and luckily she was free. So I rushed out the door headed to Rockaway Mall, singing to the CD my cousin Chris made me.

Jenn who also has lost weight knows how I was feeling about eating a big meal.


Me and Jenn in 2005 on her wedding day

Me and Jenn tonight

She told me she was taking me out for a salad, we also shared an order of calamari and I did NOT stick to my 3 lemon limit - GOT THAT...LMAO

I was laughing so hard and having so much fun joking about this stupid lemon limit.. I swear for such a little stupid joke, I laugh my butt off over it all the time.

Next we went shoe shopping.. and I'm thrilled to say I found shoes for my dress for the Christening, casual cute black shoes and SNEAKERS!!!!!! Well Jenn surprised me and paid for my sneakers!!!!!! Thank you so much Jenn! You know how hard I'm working to get my big fat @$$ to be a little @$$
Hear that Cheryl? I got sneakers!!! I can start walking now.


Here are my cute new shoes


Next I told Jenn I needed a belt because I don't want to buy new jeans yet. Happy to say my jeans are now staying up. I also asked to get measured for a new bra because I could feel how big my bras are getting. I broke down in tears when she told me. 40DDD I was wearing 48DDD!!!!! So I now have 3 new bras.. and no I'm not posting a picture of them :-P

I headed home with one thing on my mind..WORKING OUT!!

When I got in, my baby boy was sleeping, my brat boy was still up. I showed him my new shoes for the Christening dress. Then I asked the roommate to get the dresses out of the closet, I wanted to see how it looked with the shoes. I put my new bra on and put on that size 18, wondering how much more I could get it zipped up.

A picture is worth a thousand words


It was only on March 21 when I picked up that size 18 from the store!!! If you missed that blog click here to read it. yeah I know it's still a little tight, but I ZIPPED IT!!! Only TWO weeks ago we couldn't get it zipped!



I am thrilled!!!!! I will keep on working hard. Guess those killer Jillian Michaels work outs are working!!!  I changed and did my work out at 11:04pm! I was not missing another day.

Before

Since the ADHD boy was still up he was doing jumping jacks with me

After


My birthday turned out GREAT!!!!!
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