Another day of more cleaning!

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Holy Moly I'm a cleaning machine today! I was determined to get my dining room back! And I did it. Take notice of the photos from yesterday, there was a rug under my table. After four years that Home Depot rug had seen better days. 

I couldn't stand the stains or all the pulls from all the cats. Now that I am down to two cats from my "cat lady starter kit of 1995" I've had more than enough of the fur, hair balls and meowing. I am looking forward to being CAT FREE!!! Personally I don't want any more pets, but I'm sure if my boys beg I'll give in. I'll deal with that when it happens.

So here is the pig pen at the start of my day. I really never thought I would get it done.





I sorted all the clothes, bagged them up and put them in the corner of my room. That's another project and I can only handle one at a time. All the photos came off the wall and the window treatments were taken down and washed.





I made the roommate take down the child room divider between the kitchen and dining room. It needs to be cleaned too. Since Anthony has learned to stay out of the draws and Alexander isn't walking yet, I thought it would be nice to open the space up for a while.






The roommate and Anthony went to visit to his family for the evening and I got to work. I scrubbed the floor on my hands and knees with a homemade cleaner that I found the directions for on Pinterst, washed down all the walls, wood work and doors. I made a homemade wood polish from Pinterst and applied that to everything wood. Check out the shine in the photo above.

Once it was dry I turned the table sideways, hung the window treatments back up and all the photos.





The roommate took his boxes of crap to his storage unit too!! I am so pleased with how the room looks. It's the first room you see when you open the door to our apartment. The clutter and junk was getting to me. I hated coming home....well it's the people too but at least when I open the door it will look nice.


I even put some lemons in my square vase on the sideboard under the window, see them?

I still need to neatly fold Anthony's clothes that I am keeping for Alexander, pack them in the crates and put them in the basement. Clean the kitchen counter and floor, fold some clean clothes and put them away. And clean off the hutch in the dining room that you can't see in any of the pictures.

That's all on my to do list for tomorrow. My apartment is going to be neat and clean when the Early Intervention people get here Monday morning to evaluate Alexander. 

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We interrupt this blog post with a special announcement. 

The four year old BOSS came home looked around my clean dining room and spotted my vase of lemons!!! He asked for the "squeezey thing" to squeeze the juice out so he could make "Lemon Juice"




He made me kill my lemons!!! I was able to save two. Guess they have to go on my shopping list.

I didn't work out per say, but I'm sure the massive cleaning counts as something. I did stick to my diet!!!

My big fat life just got a little neater and I'm starting to feel my missing mojo come back.

Days 85 & 86 another weekend

Another crazy weekend!

Saturday June 2, 2012 - Day 85

I am still trying to get done things for the Christening. Table seating is a little crazy but I'll get it done. I have a list and need to stick with my list.

The stupid ass roommate got locked out of the van on Saturday. Instead of calling the cops he called to scream at me, like it was my fault. He told me to call OnStar but I didn't think they could help because we have the rear view mirror type, but I called and was very happy to learn they could send road side assistance. Within 20 minutes someone was there to unlock the van door. When the stupid roommate got home he went right back out again to the Dodge dealer to get us spare keys.

I also did a little shopping and got myself a lemon backpack! I love it. I also found big lemon and lime bags. I got a few of those and one I'll use to carry my shakes to and from the doctors from now on.

The other great thing that happen was I bought workout shorts and pants IN THE NORMAL SIZE SECTION OF THE STORE. I was not in the "woman's" or "plus size" I saw the work out area and thought "let me just take a look". When I saw the pants and shorts I didn't say to myself "they will never fit me" I decided to try them on because I thought they would and they DID! HOLY SHIT!!

I am so excited about the pants, much better than the big leggings that have been falling off of me while taking the walk/runs with Twiggy. And I was thrilled with the new black shorts. The two I have that I wear all the time are so big, that if I wear them when I work out, before I get to the end of my 30 jumping jacks they fall right off!

Later in the day I had the roommate get a few things down for me that I couldn't reach and I made him move some stuff in our room because I wanted to get to my secret hiding place *grin* I was on a hunt for the ring we gave my grandmother with all our birthstones. I found it and super excited that it fit. I also found my high school class ring which I haven't been able to get on my finger since before the first time I got married. woooo hooo there it is on my finger!

Sunday June 3, 2012 - Day 86

Spartan Race day!!! I was up early took care of a few things around the house and out the door I went to meet Cheryl and watch her do the Spartan Race. I had my new yellow shirt on and lemon backpack.


I was excited and nervous for her. I couldn't do any of the obstacles (I can here her saying YET) I would have been happy with myself just to make it walking around the course. I was pleased with myself that I didn't get out of breathe walking up and down the hill to take pictures. To me that was a big deal.

This was one of my favorite obstacles. I am so amazed my Cheryl!


If you don't know anything about my girlfriend Cheryl you can read about her journey here

Here she is at the end with her metal



Then guess what I did?! That's right I signed up for next year!All I keep thinking is OMG WHAT DID I DO, WHAT DID I DO!!



Even though I already knew I would have no support at all from home. I told the roommate. When I showed him all the pictures of Cheryl he said "You're going to do that?" and laughed. I don't know if he laughed because he knows how much I hate mud, or doesn't think I can do it.

 Either way FUCK HIM. Talk about an ultimate goal. I was never the kid who could finish the stuff in gym class. I would want to die of embarrassment when we had to run around the field. I would come home and cry and I couldn't do it.

I don't know how much I'll be able to do in a year but I'm going do try and do whatever I can. I saw woman doing this who were about my size now and they got it done! I can do this if I work at it.

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Day 83 - headache

I have been getting A LOT of headaches lately. I have one right now!! So much so that this morning when Anthony got up he said "stop talking you're giving me a headache" umm yep that's what I say alright! Tension? Lack of Sleep? Stress? All I can think of is...





Waiting for the bus this afternoon the mail came and some of my awesome lemon stuff was delivered and I'm way over my 3 lemon limit ;-)

I can't believe how excited I was to get new panties. When I opened the box I was SHOCKED to see how small they were, no way were they going to fit me, just no friggen way!!  I got a pair I was wearing when I was pregnant with Alexander and put my new lemon pair on top.. take a look!



In all fairness the new lemon ones are stretchy, but I still didn't think I would get them on...there they are.. on my big fat ass.





The bus was late dropping Anthony off, the monitor people came to download Alexander's data at the same time.. it felt crazy here for about a half hour. My headache still hasn't gone away no matter what I take. I doubt I'm getting a work out in at this point. Even my eyes hurt.

I'm waiting for the roommate so I can go to the A&P (big surprise) Anthony needs to bring strawberries for school tomorrow..... and the monitor just went off...shit that was a bad one! so much for hoping this thing was coming off in June.

I'm going to try to work on the seating chart for the Christening a little more tonight and then I'm going to bed early.

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PS - I really thought my Thursday would be Tuesday. I even thought it was confirmed that Thursday was Tuesday BUT TUESDAY DIDN'T HAPPEN AND I'M PISS! And now I believe what I thought and was upset over yesterday. 

Day 76 - I'm doing WHAT???

I can only think in short spans of time... from doctor to doctor appointment for Alexander and what I have to do in between them. I haven't even allowed myself to think too much about going away in 3 weeks because I have TOO much to do. But that Cheryl crazy lady had me thinking about a year from now and she needs to be stopped *evil laugh*

Next weekend Cheryl is doing the dreaded Spartan Race. I'm in total awe of her training so hard. Just the burpees alone scare the crap out of me! Looks like you have to climb a rock wall,  rope and other crazy obstacles.

Wait!.. I'm not saying I don't want to do this, because she put the bug in my head.. HOWEVER I do not think I will be physically ready a year from now. There are too many what ifs that freak me out and I do sooo much better thinking SHORT TERM GOALS. Thinking about what I will be able to do a year from now is too much for my fat ass. 

But that crazy Cheryl says "You're doing it" even now while I type this I hear her in my head. I'm going to go with her and will take as many pictures as I can and THEN I will decide if I'm going to try for next year.

I did my work out for about a half hour. I still hate Jillian Micheals, hate her, hate her, hate her, but I am really liking my shoulders ;-) The girls on the DVD hardly get dewy and the sweat just pours off me.



When I was doing the leg lifts or whatever the heck I was doing, I thought to myself  "Those aren't my legs!"





I had a Lemon-licous idea. I made lemon zest from two lemons and put into an ice cube tray.

Then I squeezed the lemon juice from one lemon into the tray and sliced up the other one into real small pieces to fit into the tray


Poured water in and stuck in the freezer. Now I'll have Lemon-licous ice cubes for my water without breaking the 3 lemon limit!




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Day 75 - it's Wednesday? felt like Tuesday ;-)

Warning..high volume of photos today.

Waves to the lemon police ;-) that's why it feels like Tuesday....moving on

I'm not sure if it's the No More Trouble Zone's DVD or the fact that I didn't work out for 4 days, but I'm having trouble getting through to the end. When Alexander started crying 20 minutes into the work out, I was soooooooooooooooo glad! Work out called on the count of a crying baby yippee!



For only 20 minutes I am still sweating like a pig. This lady is killing me, but I am seeing results. I couldn't believe my eyes when I got out of the shower and was drying my hair.. my arms are getting defined!!! Look at my shoulder you can see it! You can see the muscles.



I got dressed when into my favorite t-shirt drawer and pulled out my Bon Jovi T-shirt that I never wore because I couldn't fit into! It's a little long, I wish I knew how to sew... that's on my bucket list, I really need to get on that and learn.



Anthony was already a brat on the bus, I should have known it was going to be a nightmare going out with him and the saboteur, but the coupon I had for Payless ended today and he really needed sneakers. So off we went.

I got myself a large iced coffee and off we went. As I snapped this photo, the man sitting on the bench, on the right side of my coffee picture, asked me why I took a picture of my coffee. I told him I blog every day. I wanted to say, because if I sent this picture to the roommate he would have NO idea what kind of coffee I have, but if I send it to the "boyfriend" he would know without a doubt!





As you can see Mr. Anthony was already his crazy self. He wanted to climb on the stop sign. As I took his picture I wish I had a sharpie with me so I could write above the word stop "Don't" and below it "Believing"



And here he is in Kohl's putting on a fashion show for me.



I tried on a few things. I did not get any of these dresses I didn't like how any of them looked and they were more money than the ones I have bought on zulily.com.



I was at Kohl's on a mission to find a handbag I saw on their site, but no luck, but I figured I'd just order it on line when I got home. So I started hunting for yellow stuff since that's the "IT" summer color this year and just happens to work well with my crazy lemon craze.

I like this shirt, size 1X, but dammit I am going to have to change this blog name to My Big Fat Stomach! I refuse to buy a 2x shirt because I am only going to lose more weight so at some point it will look better and until then I'll wear the spanks under it. Hey and the shorts size 16!!! go me ;-)



This is the other yellow shirt but this is a size 2X and it felt big everywhere.



I went out and got the 1X and it looks better don't you think? but ugh that stomach.. I need to work out harder.



Next onto yellow shoes...which sandal do like better? My purple toes have to go if I'm wearing these.



Anthony was so out of control by the time we were done, my face was red from holding him down. I even had to step on his harness when he got away from me in order to stop him from running out into the street.

When the roommate got home I put him in charge on Anthony, which is a joke. A lot more screaming and yelling took place until they both got to bed. And the headache that slowly started was still going strong after they both  went to sleep! Anthony needs to be in  a padded room sometimes.

I went on Facebook for a while and caught up with everyone's life. Cheryl posted a link about a girl who ran the spartan race. If you have time read her blog.

She really is inspiring, maybe I will be ready to race next June. I really liked the part of her story with her trainer putting the muddy hand print on her back and saying "I got your back". Which gave me an idea!!

I am going to get myself a few shirts and some fabric paint. I'm going to ask a few of my friends who have really been supportive of me to put their hand in the paint then on the back of my shirt.

So if you see me coming towards you with a dish, some paint, baby wipes to clean up and a shirt with a board in it, you'll know what's going on. Fair warning this is going to happen at the Christening!!!


I continued my "lemon shopping" on line.. and got the handbag I wanted ;-) Now the lemon police told me if I got anything with more than 3 lemons on it he would take a scissors and cut all but 3 lemons off... hope he doesn't do that to my new handbag.



I also found these!!!!!!!!!! prefect one lemon, can't get in trouble there. And I need new panties, mine are all to big.



I'm taking a big risk here.. I have a feeling there will be scissors involved..LMAO




That's it, that's my day. See you tomorrow.
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Day 74 - Unhappyily Ever After

Seven years ago today we had our big stupid renewal of vows ceremony and reception spending $50k! Yes that's right, that's how much that F&^$en thing cost us and that's just my estimate because I never had the courage to add up all the bills.

I hated planning that day! When I cancelled it in '04 I should have just cancelled it and kicked his ass out! I should have known from his BS that he wanted a big wedding but when push came to shove he didn't have an opinion on anything! "Whatever you want" was what I heard a lot, which led me to the cancelling of the party in '04. I DIDN'T WANT IT! I didn't want that big wedding. I wanted a marriage!!!!!!!! Why oh why didn't I listen to my gut?   

For the past 4 years I have been hoping he would fight for us, fight for this marriage. But once again I am not important and invisible. I can't believe I married someone just like my mother! And I even told her that in yesterday's fight.

The roommate did call and wish me a happy anniversary.. UGH I said it back but could feel the tears forming so I got off the phone quick. I'm not happy and neither is he if he would be honest with himself. Something is very very wrong if we go months and months without being intimate!

I got Anthony on the bus and finally got to do a work out. Of course not working out for 4 days I couldn't handle getting all the way through the No More Trouble Zones!


I got myself dressed and ready to go to Costco when the stupid roommate got home. I called him 2 times to find out where he was.... he stopped off to talk to a guy at the other shop.

I would LOVE to just "stop off" some where to talk to someone and not have any care in the world to get home or check in. Finally he got in and Anthony and I went to pick up my Memorial Day cards.


I had most of the out of state envelopes ready and stamped. I put the cards in while in the parking lot of Costco then drove to the post office to mail them. Well Anthony mailed them :-)



I'll finish the rest tomorrow and get them in the mail.

This was a shitty Tuesday.. no lemon police either! And that just makes me more sad :(

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Day 70 - weigh in day

Big major event last night. When Alexander's alarm went off I checked him, reset it and got the book to write it down when I saw it was days since the last alarm...5 days 20 hours and 35 minutes to be exact.


Of course after all my excitement it went off 3 more times last night and once today.

This morning everyone was tired Anthony did not want to go to school and Twiggy is his new best friend! I got everyone ready, put on my new Friday "weigh in clothes" well they aren't new, the newly fit! And off to school and the doctors we went.



My home scale finally showed me down this morning. I was hoping the doctors scale would also show the same thing. I was very happy with today's weigh in. That .5lbs we couldn't explain from last week showed up as a gain in muscle this week! Down 1 point in my BMI which always makes me happy! Down 1.5lbs in fat and .5 in water. As my loveable lemon police says "woot"

Alexander had his 6 month check up, a few shots and we made it home just in time for Anthony to get home from school. We turned around and went right back out with Twiggy to go shopping at Costco for her BBQ tomorrow and I needed stuff too. Look at how packed our van is! Plus we had 3 kids with us, her niece & my two boys.


By now it was 6pm and we needed to feed the kids and then planned to meet up again to go to the dollar store and pick up a few more things at the A&P.

I can see my house from Twiggy's house so I saw the roommate wasn't home. I called him and this is what happened:

He answered the phone yelling "I AM ON THE WAY HOME!!!"
I was so taken back by him but I asked "How far away are you?" thinking he could help with the heavy stuff and Anthony couldn't wait to see him.
He yells "I AM AT THE SHOP ALRIGHT?!"
to which I replied "well then you aren't on your way home are you?"
and he screamed even more "LET ME GO, LET ME GO, ALRIGHT?!" and hangs up on me.

WTF did I do to get spoken too like that??? This is why I ended up with him. Because this is what I KNOW... this is how my father, mother, other family and even the person I used to call my "best friend" spoke to me.

Anyone being NICE was too different and I didn't believe they meant it, because I was always screamed at like this over nothing.

I went around the corner to my house, and unloaded most of the van by myself, warmed up dinner for Anthony, got a bottle for Alexander and took several deep breathes to calm down.. and then... the roommate came home, opened the door and started SCREAMING AT ME AGAIN!!!

Apparently the call didn't connect fast enough for him and he claims he was saying "hello hello hello" before he yelled at me, because I was "nasty" and said "you aren't on your way home".

He doesn't even remember how the conversation happened and I guess if you say Hello 3 times to someone the next thing you should do is YELL AT THEM!!

I told him to 'back the truck up and leave me alone" and just then Anthony stands up and starts walking backwards and beeping "Beep Beep Beep, this is the way a truck backs up Mommy" Thank goodness for some comic relief! 

I did go back out with Twiggy and got back home about 10pm. I guess putting away the wipes and cat food was too much for the roommate because after all he was taking care of Alex while I was out with Anthony. *rolls eyes*

My big exciting "buys" of the day...two sundresses from my favorite site zulily.com size XL thank you very much!



A set of yoga DVDs which I really can't wait to try! I'll be trying that beginners DVD Sunday Morning.




And of course my lemons!  It's a very silly story why lemons became my obsession, but thank goodness they did!! My life at home is mostly filled with mean people who are nasty towards me every chance they get. Nothing makes me smile more than lemons and they taste great in my water which I drink all day long! Just wish I didn't have a 3 lemon limit...maybe the lemon police will raise the limit at least for the summer so I can make lemonade.


 
I'm heading to bed now and going to read some  more in 50 Shades Darker.
And Thank you Lemon Police... you know why, I sent you a list xoxoxo
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Day 68 - thin?!?

When my friend Jenn saw the picture of me in the black dress her response was "omg u r so thin!!!" Wow "thin" is not a word I have heard to describe me. And yet the last month I have heard "skinny" too. I have a long way to go but it's so wonderful to hear people can see a difference....because you know around here I am invisible at any weight.

I was super tired when Anthony woke me up at 6:45am. I couldn't even keep my eyes open. I got him back in bed, put the TV on and curled up next to him until 9am.

I cleaned up the house a little and got the monkey to school. Then it was work out time. This No More Trouble Zones is KILLING ME!!!!!!! It is so much harder than 30 Day Shred. I tried to push myself to finish the whole 40 minutes but by the 30 minute mark I was toast.I really want to try yoga  next but don't know where to start, guess I have to go DVD hunting for that.






I showered and put on my sun dress to get Anthony off the bus. Hold onto your seats because the saboteur said I looked cute in the dress.  I really can't wear this out, I haven't found a bra that I can wear with this and holds up the girls. So it's my around the house sun dress.







I got the mail and was so happy to find my new lemon cutting board!!!






Look the company that makes it is Dexas! I happen to know Dex very well and his ass is nice too..lol





Got my rug rat off the bus and upstairs. While he played I cleaned off the counter and put my new lemon cutting board down and had a BIG smile on my face thinking about a future where I'll have lemon accents in my kitchen and maybe collect salt shakers.. just the salt not pepper :-)

My grin was uncontrollable by this point and I even imagined the band on my ring finger will be engraved with "I Know" on the inside.  I put my last 3 lemons in a glass vase on top of my cutting board took another photo and started washing the dishes.



I made pasta tonight because it's quick and easy. I knew Twiggy was coming over so we could go over her list for her BBQ. She had everything pretty well organized already, guess she just wanted a second opinion.

We headed out to the Shop Rite to pick up a few things on sale that she needed. We were done so early that when I got home I went right back out again to the mall so I could hunt down a pair of shorts for myself.

I tried on shorts and crops, that's what they are calling capri pants now.  I got my fat ass into a size 16 short, with only a little issue getting it buttoned.. and then I realized, it's not my BIG FAT ASS anymore that is the problem, it's my BIG FAT STOMACH!!  Damn that thing is pissing me off.  That's why I have the moody face in the photo below

The shorts are fine, I can't believe how my legs are shaping up now. but UGH that stomach. More crunches for me. I'm going to have to wear my spank under these shirts because that roll is not pretty! But at least I have a pair of shorts for the summer.  I'll take another pictures at the end of the summer wearing these shirts and shorts to see the difference.  

It's late I'm tired, I'm going right to bed now! 
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