Two words

Two words just lifted my mind and soul from the darkness. Those two words where so powerful to me that my first thought was "I can take care of me!" And with that I did a workout. It wasn't a big work out. 10 minutes. I'm happy with my 10 minutes. I'm happy with myself.
I can do this. I am
NOT going to dwell in the
GUILTY darkness of the black hole
Maria

I kept the tiny humans alive

I am just trying to get through each day. Some days I feel how sad I am the minute I wake up. I have a lot of thoughts in my head. I'm snapping pretty quickly especially at those who add to my mad/sad in other words, my mother and Ed.
And when Ed is the better of the two I know how bad my depression is.
I managed to get everyone started on cleaning the boys room today. We did 3 loads of laundry and I cooked twice today. Pretty amazing considering my main goal today was to get back in bed.
Being this depressed is pretty fucking awful.
Xoxo
Me